I didn't expect I would meet you on an app that helps you look for people who have interests the same as yours, and honestly? I'm glad that we're no longer together.

Yes, I did have a blast throughout our relationship even though it had its ups and downs. I had fun spending time with you, I enjoyed the moments we had together even though things got a bit rocky. Though I do admit that our relationship was far away from perfect, it had many flaws, and one of them was how fast paced our relationship as significant others began. I'm sorry, but if you're reading this (which is unrealistic), I have to get this out of my chest sooner or later, and I'll feel bad for bottling up my thoughts about this for too long.

Our relationship started too early in my opinion, it was horrible for us to progress into a relationship without knowing much about ourselves that much. I like to believe it was your fault; before you decided to court me, I already established that I was aromantic and wasn't looking for a relationship anytime sooner. Yet, you were stubborn. You pursued courting me, and with the hopeless romantic I was, I eventually gave in and stopped being aromantic for you. Every single day, you went on about how you oh so wished I could let you in, and me turn into your significant other. In a sense, it made me feel pity for you. The poor guy only wanted someone who could love him, and that person just had to be me. And then something happened when you were under the influence of alcohol, which made me rethink things. I won't disclose whatever happened that day to the public, but the only thing I could say now is that, I wish your friend didn't talk to me that day. From the way I looked at it, you were only infatuated with me from the start, and your friend mistook it for something else. I had a part in this too, I've allowed myself to break down my walls that easily without knowing what I had in store for me in the future.

To clear things up, I loved you. I really did, I fell in love with you with all of the attempts you've made to make me love you. And it hurt to see it all go down the drain because of me. I'll confess, I haven't been the best significant other either. I kept things from you ever since, and I suspect you followed my footsteps as well. Slowly hiding things from me in the long run because of the piling shitty ass reasons I had given you whenever you brought certain topics up. I lied to you, even went as far to almost ghosting you. So far, I’ve only talked about the shit that you’ve done wrong, which makes me look like I haven’t done a single unethical thing to you as well. I’d like to clear up as well that from both sides, both have dealt the same damage one has dealt with another. This whole paragraph wasn’t meant to target you in any way, nor make you look like the villain in our relationship. We both had our flaws, and in the end, it was better for us to stay away from each other. If we stayed like that, I'm afraid things would be worse than a toxic relationship.

I'm once again sorry, I still feel indebted to you because of that gift you gave me. Yes, I know I got to repay you back with the gift that I gave you in return, but the guilt inside lingers. You were the first ever person I've had a serious relationship with, not just some quickly paced relationship that only happened because I couldn't say no, and receiving gifts out of someone else's pockets was something else. I've received many gifts from other people that I love, may it be platonic or familial, yet never from something romantic. Maybe that's why I feel as if I could never forgive myself for not giving the game back to you, but oh well. You said that you didn't mind and I respected your actions, so, I couldn't go against your wishes and gift it back. The memories we had with the game still pesters my mind, therefore it not being played that much.

In the end, all that I could say is that I'm genuinely happy that we both have managed to move on from each other (which I'm guessing you have). I've realized a lot of things after our relationship, and how I've learned to overcome my own problems in itself. The time we've spent together served it's purpose, as a life lesson, hopefully for the both of us. I believe that everything happens for a reason, and this little fiasco with you has opened my eyes on many things. So, thank you, Anthony. Thank you for helping me grow into a better person for the better of the people I love the most now, in the present. :)