tired, think anais nin's "i am the most tired woman in the world. i am tired when i get up. life requires an effort i can't make" / concerned with the inherent inadequacy of language / i write autobiographies - i take inspiration from joan didion / i hate being vulnerable / i remain sentimental / unfortunately, i am the embodiement of jo's "you will be bored of him in two years. we will be interesting forever"/