Monday morning, a perfect start of the week to do something productive, yet the gloomy atmosphere made the younger want to stay in bed and savor his time cuddling with the love of his life. So he did, until minutes later, he remembered what he was supposed to do. With slight reluctance, he carefully slipped away from his lover's long limbs entangled with his own. Despite wanting to succumb in his boyfriend's warmth for a little while more, he willed himself that he had to get up now or soon, he wouldn't have time to do what he had planned. A deep sigh escaped his lips when he successfully got off the bed. He was thankful that he managed with a little struggle, earning only a little stir from the older and not disturbing his well-deserved sleep. Fetching his phone, he shot his lover a lingering glance before he took off to do his morning routine then grabbed something to eat.

Once done with breakfast, he walked out of the kitchen with a half-full cup in one hand and his cam on the other, then he settled on a stool near a window. Putting everything down on a table and there, he was greeted by the gray sky and the little beads of rain. Light tapping of (little) feet pulled him back from his thoughts, so he turned his head to where he assumed it was coming from. Smiling at the source of the sound, he crouched down to lift their little ball of sunshine. "Good morning Ddadda-ya," he greeted their beloved puppy, "have you slept well, hm?" He continued, then nuzzled his nose on his fur. With a small peck on his head, he put down their puppy to let him play around the house. "Be a good boy, Ddadda." With that, he watched as the white fluff disappeared into a corner.

Continuing with his plan, he checked his phone for his notes then proceeded to set the camera in front of him so he could get a better view of himself while he filmed. Heaving out a deep breath, he did a little fist pump as a way to cheer himself and calm his nerves. With one last look around the area to make sure his lover still hasn't woken up yet, he pressed the record button.

"Hi, babi. I honestly don't know what to say as an intro, so I'd probably just cut this part out. Or maybe keep it so you'll have a good laugh at how awkward it is for me to start this." He released a soft chuckle then continued, "As you can see at the title, you're supposed to play this when you can't sleep at night. Although knowing you, baka i-play mo ito agad kahit pa tirik na tirik ang araw at kasama mo ako o hinihintay mo ako. But anyway, naisip ko itong topic na to kasi last night," he stopped to recall one of the nights they shared, "or was it last, last night? Pero ayun nga, you told me na kahit antok na antok ka, hindi ka makatulog. Samantalang ako, nakatulugan ka na naman habang magkacuddle tayo at nag-uusap. I swear, sobrang thankful ko talaga kasi hindi ka nagtatampo sa mga ganung bagay." The younger flashed a sweet smile, eyes twinkling with a hint of gratitude and love towards the older. "Going back, I thought why not make a vid that you can watch at least, para na rin hindi mo ako masyadong mamiss." He shot a wink, staring directly at the camera.

The younger took a sip from his cup of tea and used that short pause to think of what he should say next. After a few moments of silence, he spoke again, "At times like this, I wonder anong mga tumatakbo sa isip mo. I really hope it's not something sad o yung tipong mapapa-overthink ka rin. Sana nagrereminisce ka nung times na happy tayo. Marami yun, aba!" The statement made him smile from ear to ear, as he himself had a short flashback of few of the many times they shared beautiful memories together. "Remember last month, when we celebrated our first monthsary and you surprised me with something at the attic. I still wonder how you managed preparing it while we're literally living under the same roof. Ginawa mo ba yon tuwing naliligo ako ha? Sneaky Aoi." He frowned, shaking his head as he shot the camera pointed look. But soon enough, he let out a short laugh, letting the older know he was just kidding. "That was like one of the best moments we have. Sobrang sarap sa feeling ng pag-effortan ka ng taong mahal na mahal mo."

Finishing his cup of tea, he pushed it to the side and wiped the corner of his lips with his thumb. Continuing, he said, "It's weird for me na maspeechless ngayon, knowing gaano tayo kadaldal sa araw-araw. Pero it's okay naman diba, ang purpose ko naman with this vid is masamahan ka kahit saglit lang." Drawing a hand to brush his fringe, he took a short look at the cam to check his appearance. "Do I look well-rested?" He asked suddenly, then imitated his lover. "'You look pretty as always, babi.' For sure ayan yung sasabihin mo sa akin 'no? Tama ako, diba?" He didn't bother to suppress his chuckle as he knew his lover would agree that he'd actually say such statement.

"Uy, the light rain has stopped." He suddenly noticed, taking a good look outside the window. His chuckles died down seconds ago and now he was breathing calmly. "Do you mind if I play music?" He waited for a few seconds, as if his lover would answer him, then he picked up his phone to browse. Stopping at his desired song, he pressed play and the music started.

❝ I've been living with a shadow overhead.

I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed.

I've been lonely for so long,

trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on. ❞

The music playing was Way Back into Love by Drew Barrymore and Hugh Grant, a pop song which he thought suited what he was feeling at the moment. At the first few seconds of the song, the younger was just humming.

❝ I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,

just in case I ever need em again someday.

I've been setting aside time

to clear a little space in the corners of my mind. ❞

He continued humming until their little Ddadda went to him again, making him crouch down to pick him up and place him on his lap. "Say hi to dada. Hi!" He told his son and made his voice a little higher as if it was the puppy's voice while gently waving his paw at the camera. "Very good, little one." He whispered as he showered the little puppy with light kisses. The song continued playing in the background whilst he mouthed the lyrics.

❝ All I want to do is find a way back into love.

I can't make it through without a way back into love.

And if I open my heart again,

I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end. ❞

At the chorus, he put down their puppy and let his voice be heard at the record but just enough not to wake his lover.

❝ There are moments when I don't know if it's real

or if anybody feels the way I feel.

I need inspiration,

not just another negotiation. ❞

Then as the song reach its ending, Alois continued singing and this time, he was staring directly at the camera, as if he was singing directly at his lover.

❝ All I want to do is find a way back into love.

I can't make it through without a way back into love.

And if I open my heart to you,

I'm hoping you'll show me what to do.

And if you help me to start again,

you know that I'll be there for you in the end. ❞

When the song ended, he flashed a bright smile at the camera and said, "I guess, I'll stop here na muna. Sooner or later, magigising ka na." Thinking what he said was confusing, he tried explaining further. "I mean, yung Aoi na natutulog ngayon, hindi yung nanonood nito, pft. Anyway, gusto ko nasa tabi mo kapag nagising ka eh, kaya balik na ako ulit sa room. I hope even a little, nakagaan ng loob mo itong vid. Are you sleepy na ba? I hope you are. Pero kung hindi pa rin, I suggest you cuddle my sleeping figure again," he shot him another wink and a knowing smile. "Good night, my babi. I love you soooo much." He waved at the cam and blew him a kiss, before he pressed a button to end the recording.

Standing up, he went back to the kitchen and cleaned the dishes he used earlier then walked back to their shared room once he was done. "He's still fast asleep, huh." He thought to himself then like earlier, with careful and quiet movements, he slipped back to his arms and lied comfortably on their bed. "I love you, my sleepyhead." Pressing a kiss on his lover's forehead, he closed his eyes for a while to take a rest.

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