i told my mom i can't stop talking to my girlfriend and now she is crying on the sofa listening to abhirami anthaathi and my dad will ignore me until he chooses to pretend like nothing happened for another 2 months. great. just great. he said i can't do med school anymore. apparently me missing shift is my fault when i was really doing it to make my mom shut up since she kept saying it's a waste of time. i can't do this anymore. i really can't do this. oh well. time for master's! oh wait, i have 3 C's, and i can't even get a master's. i have to retake at least one class. my dad said i bite my lips whenever i look at girls on the tv (that isn't true). i hate biryani now. should've done an engineering degree. apparently even stupid kids from school are doing engineering and pharmacy, and i'm struggling with a b.s. degree. well fuck my life. apparently i'm super ungrateful and humiliated and devastated my parents. great. and apparently my dad thinks he didn't do enough to deserve a kid who'll go to medical school unlike my other cousins who make their parents proud. wow. just wow. and i told my dad i wanted to go to therapy and he said he won't because apparently they'll just say "your parents are trash" and some liberal group will push their agenda on me and take me away (well... it's not like dr. d didn't say the same, but she was talking about getting a social worker and escaping sounds amazing). and the color for today's entry is SO FUCKING UGLY. as if i wasn't upset enough. this ruined things more. hm. well my parents are having lots of fun together and laughing and everything while ignoring me at the same time. why couldn't they be like this (minus the part where they ignore me) since i was younger?