psychotic depression - 2019

• major depressive disorder subtype mood disorder with psychotic features / psychosis.
• symptoms i experience
  • chronic low mood + low self-esteem
  • hopelessness + helplessness
  • chronic feelings of guilt, irritability, + disinterest
  • suicidal thoughts + tendancies (years of multiple attempts + self-harm)
  • lack of libido + energy
  • hypersomnolence
  • delusions (usually non-bizarre paranoid + grandiose )
  • paranoia
  • hallucinations (usually auditory, some visual)
  • disorganized thoughts + speech
  • anhedonia
  • concentration issues
  • physical pain (headaches, whole-body aches)
• i take an antipsychotic + antidepressant combination.

generalized anxiety disorder - 2020

• disordered anxiety for no apparent reason or cause.
• symptoms i experience
  • excessive worrying + tension
  • unrealistic pov on situations
  • feeling of impending doom
  • heart palpitations
  • chest tightness
  • difficulty breathing
  • chronic exhaustion
  • easily scared
  • concentration issues
  • inappropriate emotional responses
• no specific medication.

binge / purge anorexia - 2018

• subtype of anorexia nervosa that includes a binge/purge cycle. (NOT bulimia)
• symptoms i experience
  • chronic abdominal complications
  • digestive issues (constipation/diarrhea cycle)
  • lightheadedness + fainting
  • chronic fatique + body weakness
  • heart palpitations + difficulty breathing
  • anemia
  • social isolation
  • severe intake restriction
  • laxative abuse
  • binge-eating
  • cold no matter the temperature (always having purple lips + fingers)
  • hair loss
  • distorted body image
  • perfectionism
  • obsessive thoughts + rituals about food
• no specific medication.

body dysmorphic disorder - 2020

• obsessive disorder regarding one's body image.
• symptoms i experience
  • extremely occupied on physical appearance
  • belief there is a serious disfigurement or defect in appearance or body.
  • belief others see what you see in yourself
  • constant comparison between self and others
  • perfectionism
  • seeking cosmetic procedures to fix flaws but never being satisfied
  • social isolation
  • constant skin picking, grooming, + checking reflection
  • needing reassurance from others
  • feeling of shame + embarrassment in appearance
  • suicidal tendencies + behaviors
• no specific medication.