random unnecessary facts about me in keeping with my tendency to overshare or none at all

• i really love making fandom friends pls dont hesitate to chat with me
• and if i reply late its because im TERRIBLE at replying and forget OR uni is taking over my life
• i have two names, but i go with my middle name! no one calls me by my first name since it's pretty long but i would love to have a nickname from this
• when i was a kid i was loud and vain and overly adventurous, but ever since i moved countries when i was six, i stopped all that and became incredibly reclusive
• somehow i can't keep a 'best friend' for more than a year - after that the dynamic just changes to either dormant or for the worst sigh
• somewhat related to this, i often read/hear about what best friendships are like and i get that no two friendships are alike, but i really wish i could have Those kinds of best friendships (where you text each other shit and do things together all the time) but at the same time i don't know if i can handle/am capable of it sigh
• when i was like three i ran to my grandfather clutching a snake with not a single care in the world, while everyone was like (PANIC) i was fearless (reckless)
• over the years i've learned to overcome my hatred and fear of things, including amusement park rides, swimming, every vegetable known to man
• the only foods i will not touch even if you paid me are: liver/kidney/tongue, hard-boiled egg yolk (i've worked hard to overcome this hatred but alas one still remains), durian
• other than those, i love all kinds of food all cuisines ill eat them all happily
• however the true way to my heart is fried chicken
• i hate micromanaging and being micromanaged the feeling is like a bee hovering very close to you it's awful isn't it
• i cannot deal movies with gore or overtly sexual content or horror, otherwise i will literally watch anything so long as it has a good story
• on the other hand, real life gore i can pretty much handle without so much as a single bat
• the horror thing doesn't apply to stories bc i LOVE THEM imagine, recreating a creepy and scary story WITHOUT silly jump scares and loud noises and sudden movements but it still gives you nightmares for days? now THAT'S talent
• also i will pretty much read ANYTHING even fics of my notp, so long as it's written well and has a good story
• i love science fiction so much because it truly displays the potential and limits of humanity and really at the very core of every good scifi is a reflection of what it means to be human, i find there's very few genres who can do this consistently
• relationships? i don't know her but seriously i have never ever been in a relationship, not even one of those fling type things
• fizzy drinks are banned from my life i hate them so much because when i burp it feels so uncomfortable and strange no thanks
• i am straight teeth privilege and only realising just how privileged i am with regards to this
• one of my biggest pet peeves is people not using punctuation especially semi-colons correctly AND YES IT MATTERS because punctuation to a sentence is like traffic lights to roads, punctuation is so important to maintain the flow of writing!!! not that i'm always perfect in this BUT IF I DO USE IT WRONG I WILL BE GRATEFUL TO YOU FOR POINTING IT OUT
• another pet peeve is when people completely hate someone/thing without giving them any kind of reserve basically close-mindedness
• roominess in thought and emotion and physical space are very important to me!
• i'm such an awkward person it's unbelievable, this is especially true after that lull period of time where you're getting to know each other IM JUST SO BAD AT CONTINUING CONVERSATIONS
• if i don't feel like i can freely hug/cuddle/be basically touchy-feely with you, i don't think we can reach Optimum friendship level
• if my bed is a double bed, half of that bed will just be filled with stuff
• i don't move around when i sleep, oftentimes i can sleep with my glasses on and it won't come off when i've woken up
• i am generally an incredibly messy person, whether that's in my speech, my thoughts, my writing, the spaces around me, my relationships basically the whole lot
• i'm really tanned, but for some reason i have a splashing of tiny freckles on the back of my hands also on my cheekbones
• i've never broken a bone, the closest thing to that is that i once twisted my clavicle from bumping into someone during capture the flag, and now my right collarbone visibly protrudes more than the left
• speaking of protrusion, for someone with a lot of fat, i have really nice, protruding collarbones
• i can nap in the afternoon quite easily but i cannot sleep properly with lights on, it's gotta be pitch black for me to get a good night's sleep
• however, i can also fall asleep pretty much anywhere, regardless of space, time or noisiness
• i have TERRIBLE eyesight, i'm like -5 or something and i can't wear contacts either because my eye twitches So Much it's ridiculous
• my fingers, minus my thumbs and the left index finger, are hyperextended, so i can voluntarily create something called a swan-neck deformity
• if i like a song, i play it over and over and over again until i get absolutely sick of it and that's the end of that song's career for me
• turns out, I'm still a huge huge people pleaser and i tend to stretch myself thin, purely because i can't say no to pretty much anything
• i prefer savoury foods any day over sweet foods
• im a huge morning person and i chronically can't wake up late i could sleep at 5 and still be up by 9 no problem, if i've overslept 9/10 i was awake a few hours before that
• i think i have some kind of caffeine intolerance because anytime i drink some caffeinated drink (even black tea), i start getting headache-y and dizzy and sometimes feverish if it's something strong like latte
• my accent changes to match the accent of whoever i speak to
• i love getting angry/annoyed/stressed in bahasa or boso jowo because i feel like the theres more room to freely express emotions in these languages than english
• i love analysing and i love reading analyses and meta but i need TIME to think through them i can't think of them on the spot, although i have been trying to practice that lately
• I'm the type to cry after becoming emotionally overwhelmed, whether that's anger, sadness or anxiety and i'll cry for so long that my eyes sting the next day, but more often than not, the crying helps to alleviate any negativity i had harboured
• i really hate that i'm an angry crier it makes me look WEAK like i know it shouldnt be but thats just the way it is in life folks
• my favourite beverage is water best thing that god has given us simplicity at its finest liste to hong josh jisoo kids
• the best weather is cool but bright cloudy weather, i don't feel like overheating but at the same time it's not gloom and doom
• my favourite kinds of presents are long-ass letters/cards :'(
• i criticise and shitpost my faves a lot and honestly it has nothing to do with my love for them im just... the type of person who prefers being honest with my thoughts fnewiufnewin
• i mcFREAKING love MBTI it's the one thing i keep coming back to because like....it's so interesting? to see how your mind works, which routes it prefers to take to make decisions etc and there's such a huge spectrum for the 16 personality types available it's just SOOOO AMAZING!! talk to me abt mbti ALWAYS
• talk to me about your favourite things, subjects, interests etc. seriously i love learning about what makes people tick, what they find beautiful, the observations they make and the conclusions they draw from it
• I LOOOOVEEEEEEE humans they can be terrible many times but in the end they're all just trying to get by life the way they know
• i really wish i could focus on ONE thing for a long period of time so i can get GOOD at it - instead i dabble a lot and also get bored a lot
• lmao i hate exercise i wish i could stick to ONE sport and just be good at it, but 1) money 2) effort 3) im too creaky and stiff now EDIT: amazingly i am now an avid fan of excercise for the way it increases my concentration and gives me more energy
• performing!!! i love it, especially performances where i get to be...someone else. i love performing dance the most even though im as stiff as nonners
• the tone and style of the last book/fic i've read is how my writing ends up being - its like being a writing chameleon - so say i want to write a Humour fic, i'd read a lot of funny/witty stuff and then i emulate that style in my writing
• also my shitpost-y slash subjectively funnier twts happen after ive had a good intense session of writing
• i hate being put in the spot So Much, espcially about RECALLING things, which i am TERRIBLE AT, everyone: so why are you doing medicine, me: sigh
• i overthink a lot: friends, situations, fics you name it - the bad thing happens when it overwhelms me So Much i can't. do anything about it and i avoid it like the mf plague and bc i feel guilty abt avoiding it, i avoid all the OTHER THINGS i need to think about. amazing circle of life
• when i say messy I MEAN IT. im VERY MESSY. not this 'oh i havent made my bed and have a few clothes strewn and my books are a lil out of place' NO when i say my room is messy it's the living embodiment of a shipwreck IN HERE WE MAKE THINGS MESSY LIKE MEN
• i have surprisingly flexible hips and just generally more flexible than expected for someone so UNSPORTY
• nsfw is a totally brand new world for me im always asking what does this and this mean and realising sxy jokes late i only know two words f**ting and r**ming and anything else drops out of my brain its like. im actively BLOCKING OUT remembering these words oh you naive innocent brain of mine.
• for my kindergarten entrance exam (yes, i had to do an exam) i sang this kids song but the teacher was so confused with it because i didnt just sang the SONG i sang the INSTRUMENTALS as well - on that account i was immediately accepted :) the lesson here is that instrumentals are god-tier and peuldis is the devil for keeping them beaut instrumentals away from me
• something i'd LOVEEEE to be good at/know more about is music - just like how to make music, what things do what jsut liek. THE THEORY i unfortuantely quit piano at grade 2 bc i was bratty and lazy and if that wasnt one of the biggest regrets of my life
• honesty in relationships is SO incredibly important to me - idc if u have sth bad to say or ure gonna criticise just . pls dont say youre fine if youre not :(
• when i get married (inshallah) i really want to have a big family, like minimum three kids maybe max 5 kids? we'll see how i deal with the pains of labour
• i love cities so much! they're full of life and traces of every aspect of humanity both bad and good, i love how noisy and bustling it is, yet strangely isolating BUT IN A WAY THAT'S. NOT LONELY. also i just like the convenience
• i hate flowers as presents so much it's the one thing i'd absolutely HATE to receive, just because i think it's the most useless present ever......... sorry everyone
• i'm a pretty good presenter/public speaker, but man....... i'm a nervous wreck beforehand i get nauseous and hyperventilate and generally am unpleasant to be around
• i've done traditional idnonesian dance for three years now! mostly saman, but also learnt yapong
• i will never not crave fried chicken. love of my life.
• my favourite essay series is the modern love series by the new york times. read it. it's poignant and raw and explores so many things not just about one type of love but many types of love
• i often have simulations consisitng of me kinda talking to myself, but more simulating how conversations will go/could go/had gone. basically i often talk to myself
• my parents were so against me gaming in any way shape or form and now i feel like i can never reach Peak Nerd
• i'm so grateful for everyone in my life, people i've met fleetingly, people that have stayed, people who've shaped my personality and thinking and overall perceptions.