99 (2012)

• ★★★☆☆ | up
• ★★★★☆ | don't hate me
• ★★★½☆ | wrong
• ★★★★★ | it's cold
• ★★★½☆ | you don't deserve her
• ★★★½☆ | the bad guy
• ★★★☆☆ | ghost (interlude)
• ★★★★☆ | kill this love
• ★★★★½ | new beautiful

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"the sky looks the biggest when i fall down to the ground on my back"

• up

"my heart is filled with holes, only tears seep through [...] i want to share this sadness but it’s all my portion"

• don't hate me

"it’s cold here, even when i hide my hands in my pocket; it’s so cold, even when i blow into my hands, my heart is so frozen that my lips get cracked; i’m the only cold one, even when i wrap my body in blankets, it’s so cold, even when i’m in someone’s embrace, i try to block the hole in my heart, but the wind keeps coming in."

• i'ts cold

"i tried putting the memories on fire, i hoped my regrets would become the ashes but it became even hotter [...] why do you, who used to be my dream, come to me as a nightmare?"

• kill this love

"there are a lot of names that the world gave to me: strange kid, loner, weakling, outsider, maverick, if trying to make yourself fit in is better than raw talent, if becoming an artificial flower is more beautiful then you do it – i’m a monster [...] you are not strange, the world’s eyes are on too straight, we are beautiful. it’s okay to be different, it’s okay to go crazy cuz we’re the new new new beautiful [...] the me that you want and the real me are so different, come closer, i’m so beautiful."

• new beautiful