To Jacob ,

Did I ever think I’d be interested in a man’s toolset? No. Be reminded of his toolset when another man brings out his? No. Sit through a man’s history nerd out and actually giving all my fucks? Never. I fucking love it when you nerd out, and it’s not even in a performative way where I’m a tiktok nerdy men larp, but I genuinely fucking love it when you talk about your nerdy interests, because it’s when it feels the most like you. I love it when your eyes glimmer with excitement, the way you laugh and talk at the same time because you can’t contain how happy you are, the way you smile when I repeat what you said, it’s all the things that’ll play in my head when I die. I love seeing you happy, and I love being able to make you happy when I know those things make me beyond excited to know, and I love asking you stupid questions like Marvel that I would never care about but I just want to hear it being explained from you, or Star wars questions because I want to spend bonding time with things you love too. I love you, my little nerdy boy.