• "But the truth is
  • You couldn't tell if something was wrong or normal with you
  • And you spent so much time considering what it must be like to be someone else
  • Someone else, someone else,
  • That you forgot to consider what it must be like to be someone at all."

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  • "Tomorrow when the farm boys find this freak of nature, they will wrap his body in newspaper and carry him to the museum.
  • But tonight he is alive and in the north field with his mother. It is a perfect summer evening: the moon rising over the orchard, the wind in the grass. And as he stares into the sky, there are twice as many stars as usual."

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  • "Let me lose myself in the woods one day, and do not come looking.
  • Know that I will not be returning, but do not despair.
  • It's better this way.
  • I was always going to disappear, anyway.
  • Didn't you know that?
  • I've never been content, always yearned for something more.
  • And someday I will run away and I will find it in the forest.
  • Do not think of me often, but, if you do, think of me in the weeds
  • And in the trees and in the river and in the soil, six feet under, feeding the worms.
  • Know, after all these years, that I am free."

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  • "Is it cruel to buy a bouquet?
  • To cut a flower from its root and kill it?
  • To bundle it up and sell it, to try and keep it alive when it's already dying?
  • Is it cruel to press flowers?
  • To pluck them and let them dry out,
  • To trap them between the pages of books, a corpse on display?
  • I think we mistreat the things we find beautiful.
  • I think we kill them because we love them.
  • It is a crime of passion to pick a flower.
  • Though we try to deny it, it is part of our nature to kill."

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  • " FAILED NECROMANCY AND OTHER EXPRESSIONS OF LOVE.
  • How long can you hold on to a thing that is dying? And how tight?
  • How much time do you spend by its side, willing it back to life?
  • (How long does it take for you to remember that you can't?)
  • How long do you hold on to a thing unraveling? And how tight?
  • How much time do you waste, fumbling,
  • Trying to hold each string together with your fingers?
  • (When do you give up? When there's nothing left to be held?)
  • And how long will it take for us to realize, at long last,
  • That you and I are a tattered, broken thing? How much time will it take to realize that we were doomed from the start,
  • When I loved you, and you loved how much I loved you?
  • How long will we hold on to the ghost of what we were,
  • Willing the corpse to reanimate, the thread to mend?
  • How much time will it take for you to realize what I've always known,
  • That we, like Icarus, have always been destined to
  • Burn too bright and then fall apart?
  • There is nothing to be done to fix rotting flesh and broken strings,
  • And, I fear, my Dear, that there is nothing to be done to fix us.
  • But go on, go on, and pray, even though neither of us believe in much,
  • And I will watch you from afar and I will feel bad, but I will not join you.
  • I am well aware of when it is time to give up.
  • I may be a fool, but I know when something has been ruined beyond repair.
  • I am no necromancer, no tailor, and my God, neither are you.
  • I am done pretending to be ting I am not--
  • I am done pretending I am still in love with you.

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  • "They would have found dandelion seeds had they done the autopsy. They would have found a field burning lavender had they cut her open."

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  • "There is a love in me the likes of which you've never seen. There is a rage in me the likes in which you should never escape."

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  • "The world is something that was put into your hands and that you must deal with - so you will.
  • You have a rigid back and steady hands, either metaphorically or physically.
  • Is it nature or nurture? You don't know.
  • You are tired of being steady.
  • You dream of feeling alive.
  • Not that you aren't, but, sometimes, it's hard to remember that there is a heart between your ribs.
  • Your love is where you breath. Come on, breath. In. Out. It starts now."

feb 22 2023 ∞
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