- "marshmallow, caveman, goldfish"
- admitting my feelings for countless guys and having them ignore me and hate me
- all of the times i tried to talk and i had people talk over me and pretend that i wasn't talking
- all the times we went to the mall
- andy colmignoli
- beach 2k15
- beack 2k14
- being a team leader at summer camp and going to martin's every day to eat lunch
- erin's birthday party in 7th grade
- face masks with raina, makayla, and erin
- fighting with erin a lot
- figuring out i was depressed and i started to hate myself more when all of my friends started faking depression and other mental illnesses for attention, so i didn't tell anyone because i was afraid of nobody believing me and hurting myself really bad
- finding listography
- finding my dad's tobacco after he told me he stopped :(
- following laney around while she talked to boys and all of her other friends because everyone really likes her and not me
- getting kicked out of stony point
- going behind the couch with camdyn and caden
- going fishing with laurel's dad
- going through the feminist art hoe phase before everyone else
- going to a hotel with dad and playing with the tape ball and the ice bucket in the hallway
- going to dad's house by myself
- going to makayla's house the first time
- going to starbucks a lot
- going to the beach with laurel
- having friends because i could drive my friends to the places they wanted to go and then being ignored
- having my first panic attack in public
- junior counseling
- just being with layne in general and having every single boy droll over her and pretend i don't exist
- makandy
- makayla's christmas party
- making waffles with raina
- mr. burnette's class
- mrs. wolfgang's class
- open mic
- putting glue on our faces thinking it would help our acne
- robert's party
- rolo mcflurries
- ross's going away party for andy
- snow days
- starting dream team
- that huge pink jacket i had
- that time i got mad at erin for starting a rumor that she gave a handjob and i said it wasn't smart of her, and then everyone kicked me out of the group chat and talked shit about me while i watched from makayla's phone
- the groupchats
- the last time layne and i saw andy at regency
- the one holly ball my dad went to
- throwing that party in 7th grade
- trinity pumpkin sales
- walking around the woods with erin
- walking up the creek behind avalon with erin and anderson and getting the cops called on us
- watching frozen illegally with erin
- when all of my friends became friends and hung out without me
- when bradley put a heart in my yearbook and told everyone i did it
- when connor w had that spider and chased me through the house and then outside and then i jumped and skinned my knees etc.
- when connor, megan, camdyn, and caden played hide and seek and i hid caden under the laptop i was using and nobody found him
- when erin was making that makeup video in my bathroom and i peed while she was recording
- when erin's brother shot me with an airsoft gun for eating his pizza
- when erin's mom bought me a whole thing of rolos
- when everyone in gym class cut me out in 8th grade and i had nobody to talk to
- when everyone made fun of me and called me a stalker because i liked zack
- when hayley told me to go fuck bradley out of nowhere
- when i cut everyone off for a very long time around the time my depression first started getting bad
- when i got to live with connor and jack jack before lisa lost her shit
- when i had a crush on zack and everyone thought i was a stalker and made fun of me in gym class
- when i made cammie sit on my feet because it was comfortable
- when i peed the bed in laurel's beach house
- when i told raina that i liked garrett in elementary school and she chased me down the street
- when i was drawing a mustache on bradley's face and ms. jordan lost her shit and talked about how badly i was failing in front of the class
- when i was drawing that mustache on bradley and mrs. jordan lost her shit
- when laney and i bought those plants
- when laney and i tried to be penpals but it didn't work
- when laurel and i went to her beach house with her dad
- when layne asked "so does everyone already have their suicides planned out?" smh
- when layne kept flirting with every single one of my crushes right in front of me
- when layne locked me out of laurel's room because she didn't want to be around me
- when makayla and erin locked me out of the house because i didn't wanna watch the show they were watching
- when makayla and raina tried to set me up with renn
- when me and erin cussed out layne from robert's balcony
- when me, layne, erin, and makayla missed the bus in the afternoon so it had to turn around and pick us up and when we got on the bus everyone clapped
- when my entire family got on the small world ride in disney and our boat sunk
- when my mom brainwashed me to hate my dad for like a year (i regret this every day i love you dad <3)
- when nobody let me in the photo booth in uo and then took pictures for half an hour and then left me in the store and wouldn't pick up their phones
- when raina taught me how to do a front walkover
- when raina, makayla, and erin met connor and jack jack and connor yelled "get the fuck away from jack jack"
- when shane invited to everyone to his bar mitzvah except for me and everyone made fun of me for it
- when we found that bird at the beach
- when we had that open mic concert and got to ride in a limo
- when we went to sing all i want for christmas is you by mariah carey to those old people
jul 2 2016 ∞
oct 16 2016 +