• i hate myself for not being asleep
• why am i not asleep
• i want to wake up early and be productive tomorrow
• i want to wear my art fest shirt and my new old jean shorts
• i want my room to be impeccable
• i want to create art and read books and write letters and tan and drink tea
• i dont want to be tired
• my left eye is closed.
• im going to be cranky tomorrow
• i dont want to be cranky tomorrow
• how can i motivate myself?
• i can wear nice clothes and organize my surroundings early on, then indulge in the benefits
• how about a technology free day?
• with healthy foods...but there are brownies and rice crispies in the kitchen...that are to be eatten in moderation
• be at school at 1 pm for bible study and elmeer's mural
• will i shave my armpits tomorrow? Or friday? Should i test a patch?
• how will i ever achieve my desired sleeping cycle?
• and ugh i have valhalla on saturday so im forever destined to be restless.
• im disappointed in myself for not getting bobbys pictured printed and sent sooner
• i miss glen and im slightly worried about us but its probably just from our utter neglect and lack of interaction
• how can i be productive? Willpower and psychological reward systems.
• i really disliked shanas vet friend.
• i cant cook juan enriques platanitos/tostones and rice. How do i tell him if im asleep when he leaves?
• how early can i wake up and still be functional but not hate myself irrevocably? 9 i think.
• right now i cant envision myself being motivated to go to bv tomorrow. Or even remotely wanting to. Itll cut my day in half.
• i need to catch up my journal.

I thought a speck on the end of my eyelash was a balloon its time to sleep.

4:33 p.m.