i just got home from vacation and am filled with the same worry in the pit of my stomach that i thought i had lost in the ballpark. here is a list of the insane things going through my brain right now.

• work
  • going to return to find that they discovered i am horrible at my job
  • amount of work piled up will be overwhelming
  • what if i truly do dislike my job
• friends
  • have done something obviously offensive to her
  • never make enough time for friends
  • do not know how much to invest in hard-to-deal-with people
• house
  • need to finish painting and decorating
  • basement, cupboards, and closets are filled with crap that we will soon be buried in if i don't take time out to organize
  • afraid home depot threw out my house measurements because it is taking me so long to order carpet
• family
  • not spending enough time with family
  • not paying enough attention to grandma carol
  • wasting time i could be spending with my grandparents
  • selfish with brad
  • not sure if i'm honest or judgmental with brad
  • my dogs are bored
  • wish i knew i wanted children - think about it constantly
• money
  • need to evaluate true expenses and income because i'm certain i'm not saving appropriately
  • i pay no attention to retirement or investment plans i'm involved in
  • i pay no attention to my bills
• school
  • group wants to meet to talk about india presentation and i fear i have nothing to contribute
  • haven't filled out my fafsa so i'm not going to get funding for school
  • don't want to fill out fafsa and put myself in more debt
  • need to purchase books
  • worried i am an idiot
  • filled with anxiety about my trip
  • feel like i don't pay enough attention to my relationship with my classmates
• health
  • fat fat fat fat fat
  • feel like worrying is completely consuming me on a daily basis
  • stress, worry, and anxiety
  • live to eat