• No one really had time for me today
• That's alright, it's my job to be that friend
• Just another friend, lower priority, less worthy of your time, I understand people have other things to do
• The thing is, I don't
• I'm like, at the bottom of this friend-web food chain
• All the people I want to talk to were busy, uninterested or visibly tired of me
• Being apologized to doesn't really help things when its happened this often
• I've been locked in this house for so long now, I haven't seen anyone's face other than that of my family (or what's left of it)
• Humans are naturally social creatures, isn't it scientifically proven that we need to have connections to survive?
• This is all just making me feel like I'm worth less than I had hoped
• I'm not going to dramatize this and say "I'm worthless," but wow
• I'll just call this being a "low-priority life"
• You're regarded as a person but most people come before you in situations
• My godbrother actively ignores me every chance he gets, but in person he's so nice

I know for 100% sure he ignores me, he's been doing it for years I know I used to be weird and awkward and shit but I was young, I really don't want that to shape your view of me I miss my godbrother, I miss when he was excited to talk to me I miss so many people It's hard to juggle this feeling Of missing so many people at once