• : 03/20/17

– you are the star that my eyes can’t seem to stray from as i look at the sky, standing on my driveway. you are falling raindrops against the leaves on the tree outside my bedroom window. you are what my heart yearns for, like a ship yearns for shelter in a storm. you are a long drive to an unknown destination that winds on. you are a walk at dusk or dawn to my favorite little park, my headphones in and music flooding my senses. you are the music. you are indescribable, irreplaceable, unprecedented, heavenly, truly ethereal. you are my everything. and i can say with teary eyes that i am in love with you.

• : 03/23/17

– seongyeol is everything to me, he has every drop of my love. every bit of him is perfect of me. i don’t think i’ve ever felt so strongly for someone before, i’m so in love. he’s my prince & my ikigai. ikigai in japanese refers to or means what keeps you going, keeps you alive, and makes life worth while. and seongyeol is exactly that for me.

• : 03/26/17

– i just have to remember that i love this man more than anything. he deserves so much love after being so self conscious for so long. he is the beacon of light, joy, and hope for me. everything about him... his voice. his physique. his laughter and sense of humor. his sentimentality and at the same time, strength. his passion for music and performing. every atom and cell that makes up seongyeol is perfectly imperfect to me.

• :03/28/17

every day, i am absolutely dumbfounded by your beauty and grace, physically and spiritually. your entire essence sends me off on an emotional ride, as strange as it sounds. some people see you as just another member or, quite literally, measure you only by your height. however, your character, your moral, stands so much taller than that. so tall that your sweet laughter and bright smile makes the stars' glow look dim. so tall that your passion blazes and roars louder than any wildfire. so tall that the bright golden sun is pale in comparison to your joyous being. and so tall that it is impossible to ignore the strong feelings you conjure up in my and so many others' hearts. you are a complex piece of poetry filled with impossibly beautiful imagery that does not nearly do your presence justice. words from the mouth or pen are not enough to capture your perfectly flawed self. maybe the only way to describe, or rather attempt to describe, you is through a melody or tune. and, in my eyes, the only tune that makes my heart sing as much as the mere sight of you is your very voice. the waves of sound cascade through me like water cleansing and flowing down a brook, and in that moment, i'd happily drown in your sound. i try so hard to express my love for you, so hard to make myself feel content with the words on my phone screen. but perhaps the best way to show my love is by cutting the delicate and frilly language and saying with a firm heart and teary eyes, i love you 이성열.

• :04/16/17

lee seongyeol. it’s so strange and funny how that pattern of sounds and shakes my heart to no end. there’s a warm tingling sensation that radiates down my arm, in my stomach, and around my heart when i hear your voice. the soft tones of every syllable course through me like winds through crisp white sheets or rapids down a clear brook. every time i see your face, to some just a face, my heartbeat quickens. it starts to run, trying to catch up with all my emotions running away with you. you steal my heart each and every second and god, i don’t ever want you to give it back. when your sweet, honey-like laughter hits my ears, a smile slowly spreads across my cheeks like sugary jam over bread. you tickle my senses, my soul, with your intricate, gorgeous personality and demeanor. each time you grow serious and passionately focused while you perform or practice or record, each time you let loose and smile and laugh with those you love, each time you drop all your insecurities and truly let your character show. each time, you grow more magnetic. i can’t resist any and every aspect of you, from physical to internal to emotionally. one day, my heart tugged me close to someone and i’m so glad that it was you. no matter what i compare you to, or what i compare my feelings to, i feel as if i’ll never be truly able to express all my love for you. but i don’t need to try to. because loving you, seongyeol, is effortless. it’s serene. it’s ethereal. it’s bliss.