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"'You’ll get over it ...' It’s the cliches that cause the trouble. To lose someone you love is to alter your life forever. You don’t get over it because ‘it' is the person you loved. The pain stops, there are new people, but the gap never loses. How could it? The particularness of someone who mattered enough to grieve over is not made anodyne by death. This hole in my heart is in the shape of you & no-one else can fit it. Why would I want them to?" - Jeanette Winterson
"When someone is gone from your life for a really long time, you start to forget stuff about them. Like, you forget what their voice sounded like … & how they loved you so much & how everything you did was completely okay with them." - Party of Five
"My heart still aches in sadness & secret tears still flow. What it meant to lose you, no one will ever know."
"When someone dies young it's like they stay that way forever." - My So-Called Life
"Why do I have to say goodbye why does it have to be her? Why does it have to be now? What am I supposed to learn? That death hurts? I know it does ... I know that it's never going to be the same. I can learn that lesson without losing her, please don't take her away. There is not too much in this world that means anything to me right now, but without her I am going to stop caring ... my heart is going to break when hers stops & I am not going to be able to go on ... I am not going to be able to smile once she is gone."
"It's never going to get easier. There is never going to be a 'Death for Dummies' book. There is never going to be an escape plan to pain because no matter how much I try, no matter how much I cry my life is never going to go back to the way it used to be, because I know I can't just shut the door to your bedroom & hope everything disappears. I know that I can't stop myself from hoping that you will one day walk in the front door & smile as if nothing happened. I know that there will be days that it will be hard to get out of bed & look people in the eye & lie when they ask how I am. I know that its going to hurt for the rest of my life & that I will always cry, but I also know that you're in heaven now & your away from all of the pain & everything is better for you now. I just wish I could say the same for me."
"Can you imagine what it feels like to have someone sit you down & tell you that you're dying? The gravity of that, hmmm? Then the clock's ticking for you. In a split second your awe is cracked open. You look at things differently - smell things differently. You savor everything be it a glass of water or a walk in the park. But most people have the luxury of not knowing when that clock's going to go off & the irony of it is that that keeps them from really living their life. It keeps them drinking that glass of water but never really tasting it."