it took three betrayals for me to finally understand: the world is just an elaborate tapestry of lies.

• active:
  • love and deepspace
  • infinity nikki
  • honkai: star rail
  • genshin impact
• occasionally:
  • valorant
  • baldur's gate 3 ♥︎
  • project zomboid
  • the sims franchise ♥︎
  • ensemble stars!! music
  • tears of themis
  • twisted wonderland
  • minecraft
• on-going/unfinished:

• vtubers/streamers:
  • holostars en:
    • crimzon ruze
    • jurard t rexford
    • octavio
    • goldbullet
    • banzoin hakka
    • gavis bettel
  • indie:
    • dokibird
    • apollolikesbugs
    • jillyeon (not quite a vtuber but she is 5 steps away really)
  • fleshtuber:
    • jihyorge

but for all his sins, he brought you back to me.

• baldur's gate 3:
  • astarion ancunín
  • gale dekarios
• genshin impact:
  • klee ♥︎
  • ganyu–xianyun–shenhe
  • the fatui harbingers
• love and deepspace:
  • xavier (shen xinghui)
• tears of themis:
  • vyn richter (mo yi)
• honkai: star rail:
  • aventurine

you'll ache. and you're going to love it. it will crush you. and you're still going to love all of it. doesn't it sound lovely beyond belief?

• veil yllara
  • sun elf – swashbuckler rogue
• seilvrae
  • drow – warlock: the undead
• rosenkreuz auvryndar
  • drow - eldritch knight
• mourneden
  • half drow/tabaxi – bard: college of spirits

i'd kiss you, but neither of us deserves that.

• baldur's gate 3:
  • bloodweave
  • shadowzel
  • me and barcus wroot
• honkai: star rail:
  • phainon x mydei
  • aventurine x sunday
• genshin impact:
  • childe x zhongli
  • thoma x ganyu
  • jonathan x hu tao
• tears of themis:
  • marius x rosa
  • marius x vyn

know it's for the better.

• electra heart - marina
• invu - taeyeon
• melodrama - lorde
• nicole - niki
• preacher’s daughter - ethel cain
• six: live on opening night - six

i walk around all day thinking: i'm going to die in the universe you loved me in. i get so jealous of euthanized dogs.

• self-portrait against red wallpaper - richard siken
• start here - caitlyn siehl
• love opened a mortal wound - sor juana inés de la cruz
• litany in which certain things are cross... - richard siken
• humiliated - silas denver melvin
• timor mortis - louise glück

what would it be like to be free?

• barbie as the princess and the pauper (2004)
• shrek 2 (2004)
• high school musical 3: senior year (2008)
• black swan (2010)
• dead poets society (1989)
• do revenge (2022)