MARCH; if i had to go, i'd like to go out just as beautifully.

—— j o u r n a l

• mon | 01 ✧ monday. not wanting to study or do anything, really. procrastinating. chilling. watching youtube videos.
• tue | 02 ✧ I DREAMED OF THEM. THAT EP. 9 WAS OUT & I DIDN'T LIKE HOW THEY HANDLED THE SITUATION & I WAS MAD. goodness. i believe this is the first time i'm so emotionally invested in a fictional pairing that could actually become canon... but i don't want to get my hopes up, ughhh.
• wed | 03 ✧ microbiology articles were postponed... thank god, i hateee that damn class so much. <3 i can't believe they really have become the molecule of serotonin keeping me going through the week.
• thu | 04 ✧ slept bad & i didn't have any classes early. kesha made it worse. woke up feeling real fucking angry, but i calmed down soon. i really need to learn how to manage my emotions.
• fri | 05 ✧ call with the girls! finally! scheduled a visit to the vet tomorrow, also finally. NEW CHAPTER TOMORROW, FI-NA-LLY.
• sat | 06 ✧ apparently kesha might have ashtma??; i don't want to sound like a cheesy old lady but that shit was breathtaking, bro. WHAT THE FUCK WAS THE REST, though. tried to make gifs again & i think this time i'm going to give up for real. <3
• sun | 07 ✧ working on microbiology assignments...
• mon | 08 ✧ no classes today. working on the last details of my assignments, then chilling.
• tue | 09 ✧ slept 3 hours... hello again, chronic sleep deprivation, i guess. no thoughts, just SK8 & renga. <3
• wed | 10 ✧ microbiology class was cancelled & articles were postponed again. woke up at 4 because i'm an idiot, then slept for bits & woke up at 11:20 or so.
• thu | 11 ✧ heavily regretting not studying earlier for the article.
• fri | 12 ✧ so i was at one (1) dumb, unimportant mistake to have an emotional breakdown, huh. article was good in the most part.
• sat | 13 ✧ langa's weakness was the sun (!!!); never in my life i searched so frantically for a page to watch a recap episode... never, i swear. the lack of info in the preview for next ep. & fandom comments are making me NERVOUS. what's going to HAPPEN, should i get my hopes up or not??
• sun | 14 ✧ had a call with nate on discord & it was so fun... he did a power point to explain me some things of a game he's been playing.
• mon | 15 ✧ so, i suddenly have a new phone because aunt offered to sell me hers. amazing. bad thing: i was late for the call with nate, but we still watched some chapters of hxh.
• tue | 16 ✧ woke up with 8 calls from star. apparently ann thought something happened to me since i had no profile picture on whatsapp, because i was lazy to configure it yesterday, lmao. they're such sweethearts. then star & i made plans to hang out & we walked a lot, it was fun.
• wed | 17 ✧ dragged nate to renga hell & now he sends me fanarts, i honestly don't complain. still not used to my new phone but very happy with it nonetheless.
• thu | 18 ✧ school tasks. boring day. not finding fun in anything i do & losing my will to live. the usual.
• fri | 19 ✧ didn't have that awful class, fortunately. stayed up until 2 a.m. of saturday in a call with nate.
• sat | 20 ✧ "i want to infinitely skate with you". not as excited as i thought i'd be & that bothers me; wondering where are they going with reki's character & not sure i'm liking it.
• sun | 21 ✧ bored. bored. bored. ughh. currently in that phase of nothing feels enjoyable so i don't want to do anything but i want to do things & it's... very not cool.
• mon | 22 ✧ no classes today. working on projects for this week. kesha almost game me a heart attack when she went to the roof to see her wooer, lmao. we already want to adopt him.
• tue | 23 ✧ wep's episode today was... extreme.
• wed | 24 ✧ ???
• thu | 25 ✧ THEY DID ANIMATE A WAN! CHAPTER OF THE BURAIHA TRIO, I CAN'T. at some point i was so happy & they were so beautiful that i couldn't even register what was being said.
• fri | 26 ✧ last day of class... i can't take it anymore.
• sat | 27 ✧ slept 9 hours & still felt really tired & apathetic but when i saw sk8's ep. was up my heart raced faster than langa's when he sees reki. THE WAY HIS EYES SPARKLED FOR REKI & HE STOOD UP BETWEEN HIM & AD*M AT THE END. and reki, my beloved, i'm so proud of him. i was scared i wasn't gonna like it but i'm glad he had his unrealistic protagonist power up, lmao.
• sun | 28 ✧ vanitas no carte anime was announced & i'm not excited, i hate feeling like this. once again the loneliness is crushing me.
• mon | 29 ✧ blah, blah, renga, blah.
• tue | 30 ✧ spent the day with star, we walked a lot, talked & went to her place to eat. it was really nice but i was absolutely dead when i got home.
• wed | 31 ✧ watched all of rwby v8 with my sis & it was... something else, for sure. also, the anime of bsd wan! finished... i'm not ok.