• This text contains 8401 words of my pure love for him. If there's something wrong, I'll so sorry, I don't trust my english that much, but I wanted to try something new for his birthday, so here it is.

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Nearly 1200 weeks ago, 201.624 hours, 8401 days, 23 years – in Korea it’s 24 years, but the days still the same – that is the time you’ve been here, with us, all people around the world, it doesn’t matter if they’re ARMYs, or the BTS members, or your own family. You’ve been here for this long time and all this people should be grateful for this moments. I haven’t been with you for half of this time, however, it seems like I’ve been here for so much longer. It feels like I’ve known you for my entire life, all my 18 years.

Starting from the bottom, the first time I met you, the first time I saw you, you were nothing but someone I didn’t like and didn’t care about. Even though this was someone’s fault, for me to have the stupid thoughts I used to have, I can recall myself neglecting you from my life and heart. And you know what’s worst? I believed this person words, I believed her and even WORST I kept believing her for a long time, not that long, but comparing to how long I met you, it’s kind of long time.

The first time I noted you was because of a song. I’ve already talked about this in one of my lovely texts for you, the one designated to your voice. But again, Goyeob became my favorite BTS song because of you, your voice meant that much to me, your voice touched the bottom of my heart, it entered there without being called and create their own enormous space, even though I didn’t want this. Why would I want something from someone I hated? I took so long to accept I shouldn’t like you, all the pressure, and then, just as easy as this, your voice invades my most security place and thinks it can own everything it wants.

But yeah, not everything goes as you expect, does it?

This was also the first time I noted your rap – so you can say you grew by two points in my heart with just this tiny moment. Congratulations, Hoseok, you REALLY made your way there, I gave up in that thing that “Oh I should hate him”, no I went against my friend and started to like you, to search things about you. And wasn’t this the best thing I’ve ever chosen to do?

The second time is probably the one which had the biggest impact on me. At the end of 2015, watching the last BTS reality show I needed to watch, I saw how talented you were. It doesn’t even make up for how I see you as a talented person now – I don’t think it wouldn’t even be equal to the time I’m writing this and when I’ll post it, just because you’re this special and every single day and minute I get amused by how many talents you have and how it never stops appearing a new one to surprise me even more. Whatsoever, I was surprised. I was a complete blind person, if I can say, before giving a chance to you. I can freely say I hadn’t even paid attention to any of the things you did in anything BTS would go on before the day I listened to Goyeob and create this heartwarming sensation with you inside me. I don’t know if I used to ignore you, just because I remember most of the things from the other members, but when it comes to YOU, I can’t remember a single thing; or if my head is that fucked up and just lost all the memories. But yeah, I went to watch this last reality without knowing anything about you besides your name and that you were the happy virus of the group.

The show is American Hustle Life, if you’ll ever wonder about this one day of your life.

And again, as it occurred on the first time, you impressed me so much. Twice. Since I wasn’t even fighting against the feeling anymore I just accepted my true wants. What happened you ask? You happened on that reality. From where can I start with? I’ve always find you handsome, I never told my old friend that, otherwise she’d try to prove I was wrong. I’ve always liked the Sope duo – one of the rare and unique things I can remember about you was search about Sope and this was how that friend scolded me for the first time, saying I shouldn’t like you. Now getting back to where I was complimenting your beauty, YOU WERE ALWAYS SO HANDSOME. Maybe there were this moments I would deny this, but in the American Hustle Life it’s impossible to deny anything from you, it’s irresistible. If someone wants to try this, I warn already: it’s an impossible mission, but just try to see how far you get. I’ve completely fallen for you, just like a doll, in three episodes, even less than the three first ones complete, two and a half.

I wouldn’t talk to my stupid friend about this, I wasn’t as stupid as her. Even though, as I think about this now, I should’ve talked with her. I tend to be insane when I talk about something, I went so loud with my other friend – that just started to learn about BTS – and she liked you, just because I talked so much about you, I can’t keep my mouth shup, this is so real. But yeah, maybe if I talked calmly with her, if I made my points, she wasn’t that type of person who think she was always right and nothing could prove her wrong, no. I got her to get more closely to BTS again when I started search things about them, just because I wanted someone to talk about this with. And if you connect all the points, I could’ve made her liked you, if I had the chance today, I’d totally try to do this, it wouldn’t matter if she would think I was boring and lasting doing this. I just want the whole world to see you as I see, to see all the great things you’ve done, to see all your talents and tiny lovely things.

You’re so important in many ways, each little thing about you, each of the ones I’ve talked in my 24-days countdown thread – and some other topics that couldn’t fit there –, but ALL OF THEM. They all have a special meaning to me. A meaning that is attached to my soul.

All your singularities. From your hair, which even being dyed so many times in these latest months, stills look like the softest cotton candy in the whole world, until today – and please consider today as some hours before your birthday, but now that I’ve seen any preview of The Wings Tour, I’m going completely blind on that and thinking your last hair was the curly one you appeared with on the V Live for the comeback; to the tips of your toes, your feet, the one that also receive one of my lovely text just for itself, the ones you always praise for your hard-work, the ones I find really cute looking and freaking beautiful feet, how is this even possible? I envy you for this.

Now let’s get up again and talk about each part of your body, since I should prove myself you’re beautiful and a piece of art. Our first stop is your forehead. It’s something that appears only once in a lifetime, but when it appears, God who knows who will come back alive from this shooting. Your forehead is probably the part of you I miss at the most, even though I think you like it a lot, but Big Hit doesn’t let you show it, or they don’t want three hundred bottles of gel on your hair. Who knows? The only thing I know is when you decide to put for hair up just to show or forehead and it stays there hunting me down. When you do this, it’s clear to me you’re already at your insane performance state, AND THAT MEANS, I won’t be able to look at anyone else besides you. Getting down, we get to your eyes, which are beautiful in every way, even when you put these ugly contact lens on. The real and bare ones are like two beautiful pearls which are always so bright. As bright as yourself entirely, your eyes complete perfectly the happy state your face shows when you are anywhere: on stage performing something, receiving some award or even when someone compliments you. Every single time your eyes and face get so bright and happy, it’s hard to not notice this beautiful scene. And just like I said, even with the disgusting contact lens, you can stay as handsome as ever, now that your hair is so light, they give a great contrast to your face, just like your hair and I find this worth appreciating, a mixed intense from dark to light color, it’s true art. In the bottom of your eyes, there’s your eye bags. I know sometimes it’s something bad, a meaning you haven’t been sleeping well, but even when you seem full of energy and as bright as the sun – actually leaving the sun shaking – your bags also appear. They give a cute appearance to your face, don’t see it in the wrong way, what I mean is when you smile, and your eye bags appear, they make your face look even fluffier (is this possible? Yes, it is), filling up the upper spot of your face, just like your cheeks do with the down spot. I love when you look like a cute baby, the one you truly are, not the performer insane guy.

And now we have God’s best artwork: your nose. How can a nose be so perfect to the point that it made me start liking people’s noses? Oh, I’ve already said so much about your nose, how much I like the line of it, you can clearly see a line when you look to your side-profile. Your nose is the cutest when it twitches, just because it twitches for each thing you do, even when you breathe or talk, your little nose moves, up and down. I find funny when you try to do some face, the can be voluntary or involuntary, when you do your cute faces your nose gets up, when you frown it gets down. It’s a unique nose and one of my true loves, I WANNA POKE IT. Going to the sides, there are your cute and chubby cheeks which, just like your nose, they got a spot in my 24 things for themselves only. I get so sad when I see you some days because it looks like you’re trying to lose weight. You aren’t fat, okay? Not even near to this, what I see about chubby cheeks is that they’re cute and I love to just look at them. There should be an entire exhibition for your cheeks, they should be more appreciated and loved. Who doesn’t want to poke, to touch or even to bite that cute little things? And right next to them lays your dimples. Your face is full of cutesy and love, just to complete your personality and self, being lovely and cute – most of the time. Just like your cheeks (it would be great if it was these two being appreciated together, just because your cheeks are that unappreciated), your dimples are little things I want to poke. I almost cry when I see you letting someone touch your dimples, you just get to smile to de person and I want to scream now because I can’t stop thinking about this and how it’s my dream for life. To meet you and to have the chance to touch your dimples. No one can deny these two (cheeks and dimples), complete each other in every way, when you get to smile your cheeks turn into two cupcakes, your dimples stay there appearing like they never want to vanish again, and that’s how I’ve made them being my two tiny houses in your face. More about these two things: when you eat, you look like a squirrel, you eat in such a nice way, and these two parts of your body make things look even cuter. I never thought it would be possible for me to appreciate someone eating, but yeah, thanks to you, this is possible. One more thing is that not only when you smile your dimples appear, they are there pretty much every time. You just get your lips a little bit up and BOOM there they’re.

And I think this is the main reason why you won the battle against the sun to which one is brighter.

Now there are your lips. Something I like about you is your heart-shaped lips and how they can change so much with your mood. When you’re happy they will always have the most beautiful heart-shape a person will ever get the chance to see. When you’re sad or angry or don’t want anybody to provoke you, your lips go down on a “ㅅ” shape. For me is more likely a doggy face, I find it so cute, despite the reason why you would be with that shape, but just like your entire face, it cannot think it isn’t cute. Also on your lips there is something you should never feel afraid of showing because it’s other one of God’s best artwork: your mole. Your lip mole is – most of the times – hidden on photoshoots, and I get so sad because of this, it’s a tiny, tiny, tiny part of your body I like so much, I just want to kiss it and say it’s the most beautiful thing, BECAUSE IT IS. Your lip mole is your cute charm; I’m glad people like it and appreciate. I was a person that wasn’t used to moles, I don’t like one of my moles because of the weird place it’s, but yours made me change my whole point of view about it. So, to all the editors of BTS photoshoots: let Hobi’s lip mole live! Keeping our place here in your mouth, your teeth take the next spot of our talk where they’re as bright as you. I know you used braces when you were younger – not saying your teeth wouldn’t look amazing even if you didn’t used it – but, hey, look what we have here: another part of your body that just proves how much of a sunshine you’re. The entire combo of your mouth are the cutest ones, the bests ones in all categories, people should appreciate the whole art that is your mouth from your lips, passing through the cute lip mole and lastly the teeth.

Of course, nothing is a 100% perfect, isn’t it? As for it, in your mouth there is a very rude thing. Your damn tongue.

Who gave you the idea to stick your tongue out for everything you do. Also, when you’re with your insane mode on, you use two things: your tongue and one special place that will also come down here, just wait a bit longer. I don’t know what happened from the latest days until today, but I’ve found some provoking gifs, and God, I hate and love your tongue. It’s long, but you use it from the WRONG purposes. It’s hard to live with this, it’s truly a crazy thing, your crazy way of being on stage, of driving people to their limits. I still think this is a way of art, thanks to your crazy tongue.

To the sides of your face we have your cute ears. Which just like your nose: they’re and aren’t tiny at the same time. I can’t go against your ears when it comes to them appearing at the side of your caps or hoods. They always stay down like a doggy’s ears, AND IT’S THE CUTEST THING IN THE WORLD. Enough said. When you put on your protector, they go up a little bit and it seems like you’re an elf. My main question this times is if you’re real or not because I tried doing this stuff with my ear and it never worked. Just like you said, your ears are you charm, that’s for sure. If we keep going down to the sides it comes a place that’s rather like an affluent of your tongue, your jawline. Just like your nose, it’s a beautiful line of your face that’s so easy to be seen, perfectly placed, something that makes you look even more like real art. Not only your jawline is a beautifully drawn line, but it’s also a knife. Yes, it’s a knife. How can you tell me you can’t cut anything with your jawline? Every time I see a picture of it I get my heart cut down just by the photo. And it’s only a photo. And the jawline is what completes the duo – nose and jawline – to your perfect side-profile. It will always amuse me how the lines on your face are greatly placed, they make you look even more unreal than what you already look for all the beauty you have.

And I said perfect duo to your side-profile? I meant perfect duo from your face. Do you think I only love your side-profile for this? Completely wrong. The part of your body coming down here also takes its place: your neck.

I don’t know which part of your body I started liking first: it was or the neck, or the arms or the nose. Probably one of the first two, or they even appeared in my mind together. And the reason? Well, let’s keep talking about your side-profile. That fine day, I can’t recall the date right now (I think it was 151216), but the Run Era makes up for the best of your days. Who doesn’t love the Run Era, right? It truly was your best Era for everyone to start appreciating and knowing you, I’m glad I got to be part of this. But getting back to the date, this date, a photo of your side-profile and your neck. I’ve always been a neck-lover, I like long necks so much and your neck is long and beautiful and just like the rest of your body has such a greatly and easily seen line which makes you grow even more in the photos. You know what else I love? When you put a choker on. And this is the true meaning of art, a beautiful piece, plus a complement of artwork. People say men aren’t made for chokers, but who cares about what people say? I love your neck, I love to see your Adam’s apple bob when, I love to zoom in and out just to follow your lines. And I love a choker on your neck, don’t forget about this, make a comeback of them.

I’d go out loud and straight to your arms, just to complete my loves, but here is something I haven’t mentioned yet, not even in my lovely texts, and it’s something I love about you. Your clavicle. The main day I’ve noticed this part of your body and I was sure it would bring me pain to the rest of my life was on the Blood Sweat and Tears Dance Practice. On that day, you were using a blouse – I will never know if that thing was oversized or if it was a plus size so that’s the reason it looked like this –, but that insane blouse kept showing your clavicle on every moment, like EVERY MOMENT. Again, another part of your body with a beautifully line, it was possible to see a part of your bones, in the right places. Sometimes I get so surprised by how each part of your body is so right placed, and right made to. It’s different from other people to me, it’s not only rare, it’s unique.

Going to the sides again, we have your arms. What are your arms? Not as strong looking as Jungkook’s or Seokjin’s, for sure, but they have their muscles. I never cared about arms, I don’t like really muscled arms, so I’m glad yours are on point – I mean, if you had insanely muscled arms I’d probably like it too, since I’m like this with you –, but what I find funny is that you, and when I say you I mean almost all of BTS’ members, hardly ever show your arms. You, your case is funny, I’ve noticed that when you’re outside Korea you like to show your arms a lot. Especially when you are in America, that’s the thing I’ve noticed the most, I hope when you come here you do the same, ok?

I remember when the Danger Era was out and you used to use that stupid transparent clothes that didn’t hide anything. They showed so much of your arms, and they were very loose too. It was like nightmares to watch you perform with this clothes. But you know something worst? When you used that one that was open behind. And showed your entire back. Talking about backs, it’s our next spot here. Something that is even hardly ever seen than your forehead and arms combined – imagine this, seeing your back literally once in a lifetime –, but that it should be appreciated too. I think I can’t pass any of the parts of your body without saying how much I love your lines, and it’s true. I do love them that much, and the first thing I’ve noticed about your back was this. I’m sure this line here (as well as the arms one) is thanks to all the years you trained dancing.

Going back to a part of the arms, walking down and down we get to your hands. I’ve always liked hands, I haven’t noticed yours for a long time, I mean I’ve noticed other idols hands even sooner than yours, maybe as the days passes by and my love for you only grows and grows, and since I everyday notice different things from you, this would take me a while to pay attention to. But, I finally realized, and your hands are so amazing. My state of most love to it is when you use your rings, they fit your fingers so well, they always give the best contrast to the lines of your hands, just like Saturn, the planet with rings around itself. This is how I see your hands when you use rings. When you touch something… You hand is small – comparing to mine, that’s almost the same size and I’m 10cm smaller then you. I like to see you holding your cellphone, the way you hold it, the way you hold it when you take a mirror selfie. Everything about your hand, when you bring it near to your mouth – and your teeth appears – for you to eat something. Artful hands, also artful fingers.

Remember when I said I hate your tongue on performances and that it wasn’t the only part of your body that always drive me insane? So yeah, here they’re. The best friends of your tongue: your fingers. Something I forgot to mention from all the things up there, but that will probably be mentioned again in something down here is that you don’t have bones – yes, I said I can see your “bones” of your clavicle and back, but I lied, these aren’t bones. The proof you don’t have any bones? Your finger just work on an insane way, I don’t know if you TRAINED for this or if it’s just one of your million abilities, but that’s so fucked up. I don’t know and I don’t want to know. Not caring about this rude part of your finger, where you always seem to like to call the public to you, WHATEVER, getting back to the art part: your fingers seem to be long. If your hand is like mine, probably with longer fingers, then we’re in the right spot. I not only like the line of your fingers, but itself entirely, even your cute little nails take the spot here. Your hands were one of the latest things I noticed about you and still the ones I like each tiny part, even the division of your fingers.

I’ve talked about your back right, let’s talk about your tummy. Not abs, I hate this stuff, your cute tummy. And who cares if you don’t have abs? If you don’t like to work out that much, I just hate to work out too, it’s more like a trauma to me. I love beautiful and cute tummies. The only thing I can remember clearly is one of these days I was passing through my list to you and a photo that your tummy was appearing. It’s not cute and stuffed, but it’s not abs either. I like it so much the way it is, the line again, and (okay this is rare and funny) YOUR BELLY BOTTON. I could see it and I’m glad because it’s cute, just cute as you.

Let’s get down again and back to the terrible parts of your body that live me insane. Ok this one I’ve never talked about either, but it’s something I always notice and this part makes me want to stuff everything I see in front of me now in my mouth – also this thing makes me doubt if you have any bones, for REAL. Your hips that take this spot today. I love how fluid all your moves always are, not only with your hips, also your arms, fingers, head, legs, with EVERYTHING. Your entire body is so fluid, but when it comes up to your hips, it’s something completely different, I get amused for every move you do when them, it doesn’t matter in which song it’s, if it’s for Baepsae, for Dope, for anything, even on your solo, your movements never fail to get me amazed and with my eyes shining, your hips takes the main spot for this, I never find a way to talk about them, today was my first chance, that’s not all I have for it, but it’s the most important part. I love it so much.

Down next, the thighs. Just like your hands, I’ve only noticed your times not a while from now. I just noted them because I was sending a gif to my friend and I read the subtitles and they were talking about your thighs. Well, now I’m here. They are thick thighs if I can say that AND AS INSANE AS YOUR HIPS. What a great leg work. Again, I’m going to talk about the infamous Run Era, because this Era made so much difference, but the pants you used on the performances, they were truly cruel. Once more, a part of your body, that even under clothes, I could see the entire line, drew perfectly just like all the other ones. I don’t know if I want to punch your thighs to see how hard they are or if I just want to bite or touch them. One of these three things, probable the second one.

There is more? Of course, there is. I Need U Era, 2015. You always performed on short. You do like to walk with short, sometimes you go out using short – and it’s only you, because all the others are package with full clothes. You like your legs, don’t you? I see many points and reasons for it, I like them a lot too. I like your knee? This is something I don’t know how to explain, there isn’t a proper explanation to why I like your knees, I’ve just seen them on a day, on a photo and I thought they’re different, cute (?), even their line was amazing. The way your whole leg is worked, everything there in the right place with the right muscles, it’s incredible. I love I Need U Era performances because of this.

And I think the one that misses to end all of this is clearly your feet. I gave it a text, it wasn’t as big as the other ones, but I find your foot so cute, the shape of your toes, your entire foot is beautiful and cute. I envy you because when you train what I used to train your foot become horrible and the toes looks like mushroom (seriously), but whatever. Since this is the end of my appreciating your body part of all this talk, I can take the reason that I like your feet to explain about your hard-work. The first time tell called my attention was when you posted a photo on SNS saying you were training barefoot these days. BTS always had this habit of posting photos of their feet – I’ll never understand this, seriously –, but when you posted yours I started thinking about this. I always liked training barefoot too. I connected with yourself with this, it’s the first time we had some relation when it comes to dancing. I was happy about this and then the comeback came. You guys won and then you showed your feet for everyone there.

This was the moment that changed everything to me, a memory of your hard-work, the hours you passed there, training, doing your intro, barefoot. You were there. I don’t know for how long, I tend to get crazy and train for three to four hours straight when I want to get my best at a dance, I wonder how long you stay there. When you posted your Hope on the Street video I was even more amused by your hard-work, how my you trained to get better at that flip you needed to do for the intro, and how better you got. You never give up, you keep trying and trying, it doesn’t matter how long to learn to do it perfectly would take to you. You are always there, trying and trying again. I didn’t have so much faith in myself before I met you for real, when I used to dance I was so pessimist that I always gave up in the third or fourth failure. And I didn’t get any hope nor help, so things weren’t looking so bright. Even after I lost almost all my love for dance and gave up doing it, since it wasn’t going to where I wanted, I kept with my pessimist self.

And this is the third thing (that I remember) that marked me the most about you. You’re always so positive and bright and hard-working, and you never give up. I don’t understand how people can be bad at you, how people can be bad at someone with such a beautiful and colorful soul. At someone that always wants the best of everyone, at someone who is always giving positive thought where he passes. You’re the real light of the world, you’re my eternal light. You changed myself so much, thanks to you I gained hope, I changed my bad self, I gave up on the thing that was making me give up on my life. I let you teach me how to be a good, a positive person. And this was the best thing I’ve ever done? There’s no question about this. Even if I tried, I wouldn’t be able to say everything, to thank you for everything. You saved my life, Hoseok. But there’s more before I get back to this.

I’ve talked about dancing, didn’t I? And here we have the fourth thing. The first time I showed interest in dancing was to my mom, when I was at school and I saw the little girls doing something on the gym. My eyes grew so much bigger, I told my mom I wanted to be there to, so she brought me there. I’ve never expect I’d be a rare case and that I’d be part of the real team so early – if I recall correctly, I only took part of three of the training days. And things stayed like this for eight years, until my life started going down and down to the point of degradation. I hate talking about myself here, I just needed to make my point, and this is enough. You know when it was the second time I got inspired by dancing again? When I saw you, when I noted you, on American Hustle Life, dancing against the American Crew guys. It was completely different from what I used to do, but it had the same meaning of dancing to me. You made my heart start beating again for this, you made me feel happy again to dance. You brought me so many good things, how could I be so blind as I was when I met you?

I love to watch you dancing, to watch you performing. When you’re on stage, you change yourself entirely, you have an insane stage presence, the stage is your real house, your real place. Jung Hoseok, you were truly made for the stage. I’m glad you had the chance to prove yourself at the best like this, and I hope in a not so distant future you can prove even more of this. I’m so excited to see you performing here, in March, your solo stage. I was so happy when I saw you on MAMA, on the Seoul Music Awards. I’m so happy you finally got the be the center in a BTS song, you got to show your potential as a dancer, to get people to notice your title of Main Dancer is a true one. I hope this year you get even more chances to prove this, to do any solo stage or even a street stage. I hope you keep posting your Hope on the Street, people may not appreciate it at the best state nowadays, but just like you’re for everything you do, please never give up. The prize is more near than where you expect.

I could name all my favorite performances – being all of them, obviously –, the ones you’re at your best state. The ones you prove the stage is made for you, the ones you go out crazily with dancing and rapping too. The ones you show what a dance leader is, with you always looking at everyone, making sure everyone got everything right, everyone is okay on stage. You always pay attention to everything; you take care of everything. I always have my eyes working on you, it doesn’t matter if it’s to only look at your fluid moves or if it’s to look at your eyes, to see to what you’re looking to, to see to where you walk. You never fail my expectations; it doesn’t matter which stage is.

And one more here, which is the most important. Getting back to the first thing I noticed about you: your voice. This will be more focus on the three things that complete your voice entirely. The first one being your singing, you don’t sing that much, there are some songs you sing as a solo vocal, some songs you sing as a background vocal. For me, it doesn’t matter which one it’s, just the fact that even that you’re a rapper, you also sing. And you’re a great singer too – once more, one of your million talents. I know you were meant to be a singer, you wanted to be a singer, but then you needed to change everything for Bangtan (we will talk about this later too). And still, one thing that’s interesting is: your singing voice is completely different from your rapping voice. It’s not like Namjoon’s that is deeper, or Yoongi’s which is a bit stronger. You have this unique ability of changing so much your voice and when you sing or it’s a lot deeper or it’s an entirely different tone. I’ve already seen people confusing your singing voice, thinking it was Namjoon’s – and let’s be realistic, your rapping voice is so far from Namjoon’s, how in the heck would be that near to his if you two don’t have the same timbre. And it’s not only your singing voice, but also when you do a slower rap, focused on the trap style, like on Second Grade or Cypher pt4. It’s not the same tone as you sing, but they’re similar in the way you do it.

And now it comes down to your rapping voice. Your rap, you grew so much in this. Your hard-work wasn’t only for your dance, surely you worked so much on your rap too, I can’t compare the two of them, they are two different reasons, but thinking you learned rap to be part of BTS, thinking you still learning until today, seeing how much you grew, seeing how much recognition you’ve got from the start until today. How today you take part of many songs of BTS, how today you can do better and faster raps, comparing how they gave you an almost singing line in I Like It and seeing how now, on Outro: WINGS, you took two parts of rap and one of them being so fast. Seeing how greatly you did with Ma City. You even wrote a part of your intro, isn’t this amazing? Many other songs, you became an admirable rapper, a great rapper, Hoseok. And you deserve the recognition as one too. I know for how long you’ve preparing your mixtape, since 2014 – which was the first time you talked about this in a BTS Vlog –, you’ve come a long way since the start, I want to see your mixtape soon ok? I can imagine how hard you worked for it. And always keep up with the hard work, your love for rap grew so much, didn’t it? I can see how close you’re with rap nowadays. Just a reminder to you here: I’ll always here admiring how much you changed, admiring your works, your songs.

As I said your singing voice is deep and distinct from your rapping voice. And, you know, even when you rap your voice is different in each song. And this was what amused me at most when I heart Goyeob for the first time. I’ve been listening for BTS songs for a while, I didn’t listen to all of them before I heard Goyeob, probably the other one that marked me the most was Baepsae, for the background sounds (we will get there too), but the other ones I didn’t give the much attention they deserved. I wasn’t that into going under and under the songs at that time because I hadn’t found anything that got me to that point. And yeah, one of your abilities is to be able to fit your voice in any song, being a hard song, like Not Today, a screamo song like Idea of Classroom, an EDM like Wings, or even something like Goyeob. Your rapping voice is in different tones in all this examples over there, you always do this to fit the instrumental, don’t you? And that’s also the reason with you always have a – it doesn’t matter if it’s short or long – part of your rap in the background sounds. I care so much about Goyeob thanks to Taehyung’s solo before yours, the song changes so much for the two of you, but for your case, I started crying. I’ve never, EVER, cried for anyone’s vocal, maybe only songs instrumentals, and that was for two of them (anime songs only), but someone’s voice. That would be impossible to me since I’ve never cared about anyone’s voice. I always used to listen to songs only for the instrumental, however, Hoseok, you changed all this. Your insane capability of changing the tone of your vocal changed all this. Each BTS song you always get the most addictive part, each BTS song people always like your rap part – even if they aren’t biasing you or they don’t care about you. Thanks to this, people always assimilate your voice as the best to hear in the rapper line. And, even though I’m not the right person to say what is right or wrong, this is totally right. Your rapping voice is your eternal trump card, you were made for the stage, for real. Your voice and dancing complete each other, a true artist with many talents.

And the last one: the beatbox. This one is not only the beatbox, but all the sound you can do with your mouth and you put it on BTS songs. Want to notice this? Hear Baepsae. All the back sounds, the addictive ones, that stick up to your head and went you hear it again you want to do them together with the music, these are yours. One more? We have the car sounds in Boy in Luv, on Yoongi’s rap part. That’s yours to. More? Well, your rap on Save Me (which clearly saves the entire song, don’t get me wrong, just facts here), the ‘Ho! Ho!’ part. That’s yours again. I think these are enough songs, but there are so much more. People just need attention and to search for the instrumental with background vocals. They can also here you singing there – I Need U chorus, 2! 3! Hoping for Good Days chorus and Spring Day chorus. There are some many sounds you can do with your mouth, I get impressed by them each time and when you showed your abilities with beatbox too I wasn’t that amused, BUT I WAS BECAUSE GOD, BOY WHEN WILL YOU STOP WITH ALL YOUR TALENTS? But yes, as I already knew your voice, I knew you know how to work on your voice and use it as a total favor to you.

This is already so long, this is my most difficult part to talk about, it’s something that I don’t explicit that much and I think I won’t be able to express myself at the best way here, so I’m sorry. But again: Hoseok, you saved my life. Exactly one year, nine months and one day after my dad’s death you appeared in my life. And you know what’s funnier? Your birthday is just one day before his. I can’t say I don’t see things in common on you two, like the cheeks, it’s probably what gets me the most, with the smile and the way you act. The duality thing you have, he also had. I don’t see you in him, not that I wanted something like this, it’s that it’s so similar. I’ve never said a proper goodbye, things happened so fast, I just came home one day and my mom told me he was dead. They were separated – that’s not important stuff, but just for good measure. The same day that thing happened, I was going to school, just like every other day and my class had a picnic on the main hall. It was a happy day, the next day we were going to have one of our most important tests, it was Friday, but my school always had tests on Saturday. I was so calm, I used to hear BTS songs at that time, just to hear, not that I searched for anything, to get to know about the members and that, I just liked to listened to some songs, so that time I was totally alone. I didn’t cry, I didn’t have the right to cry, I didn’t care when they warned me and I still think until today I’ve cursed myself. What I think is that I paid the price for a friend, but whatever, this part isn’t the important one. This happened in my last school year, I managed to keep doing things normally, even though I was so broken already I was only thinking of dying and dying soon. A month later I gave BTS a chance, since I friends on the internet that liked them and K-pop wouldn’t be a new music style to me, since I’ve been listening to F(x) and SNSD since 2012.

Eight months later only, you got your chance. And what difference you made, you know? I got my will to live back. Something I haven’t seen since 2012? Maybe even before, I don’t remember, I don’t like to think about all this bad stuff. I like to say my life restarted when I met you. It was a little late to start it all over again, but I was going to a different place, starting a new thing, so why not start a new life too? I can’t say I don’t own things to the people that were part of my past life, many of them helped me a lot, but thanks to all this change, thanks to you, I’ve got many other ones that always make my days better and brighter. You being the main one of those, Hoseok.

I haven’t talked properly about your happiness and personality here. I feel so sad when I see people degrading you for this, it’s a gift to have, not a bad thing. Thinking about the positive things of life, being happy for this. I’m so glad you’re like this, I’m so glad I’ve the chance to meet someone like you, someone who can naturally chance the mood of rooms, someone who can give energy to people by just being there, someone who brings eternal joy with his smiles. Someone that’s you, you’re so unique, Hobi. If it weren’t you, if it wasn’t you, if I kept my thoughts with my other friend, always thinking bad of you, I wouldn’t probably be here now, wishing you Happy Birthday.

I wasn’t the type to light bright and hyped people, I wasn’t positive, I was a true mess before all the days I passed with you. When I say that you saved my life, I truly mean it. Starting with your smile, the brightest thing in this world, the sun envies you. Another thing that I’m not is a smiley person, I’ve never liked my smile, I didn’t like laughing because of this too. Nowadays, I still don’t like my smile that much – need to work on that, one day I’ll – but I laugh at anything, at your photos, your videos, when I see you smiling I instantly start smiling too. Your smile is addictive, just like your voice, I’m not even kidding on this. You get on everyone with this, I could say, it’s your back up trump card? And your happiness and cutesy. A person full of aegyo, who only started doing this for the fans, isn’t this true love for the fans. You didn’t like it, but now you call yourself an aegyo machine – I find it so funny and lovely, I’m sorry I just want to hug you.

And this is true, the thing I want the most now is just to have the chance to meet you, to see you live – I’ll already see you live, I hope I can be very near you, so that you can feel all my gratitude. I want to have the chance to give you something, to show all my thanks, to show you how much you helped me, to give you a present you’ll always remember. Something that you’ll keep to warm your heart. I want to have the chance to hug you, one day, to see if you’re as hot as you seem to be, as fluffy as I imagine you are. To touch your hair and to prove my theory that it’s made of cotton candy. To poke at your cute dimples, to feel shy for the eternity just because I touched them. To smell you, just because everyone always say you smell so nicely, I don’t even imagine this, maybe baby’s soap. That’s what I imagine. And the main one: to just look at you. Many people also say you look even more beautiful live than what you look in fansite pictures. I don’t know how this is even possible since you already look like art in their photos – I even confuse the photos with some fanarts, so why not? I can’t imagine this last one, that’s the why I want it as a surprise. I think about this every day, how you should look live, if I can see all your lines and features so well, or if I can see even more of them, if you’re taller than what I think (or smaller). I hope I will be able to discover this soon.

Something I’ll never forget is a sentence Jungkook said about you; the same thing the member sometimes talk when they mention you and your stage name. You chose J-Hope because you wanted to be the hope of the group. You’re not only the hope of the group nowadays, but also the hope of many and many people, just like you’re my hope. My eternal hope. Hoseok, are you happy you achieved your goal? Are you happy you could change you and change other people too? Are you happy you’re an inspiration to people all around the world, it doesn’t matter in which way, being as a rapper, as a singer, as a performer, as a happy person. Any of these, I hope you achieved your goal when you chose that stage name. I hope you can feel the return you wanted to have with this, you deserve for all you’ve passed until now, for how much you fought to get there. Keep up your smile, Hope.

Nearly 1200 weeks ago, 201.624 hours, 8401 days, 23 years – in Korea it’s 24 years, but the days still the same – that is the time you’ve been here, with us, all people around the world, it doesn’t matter if they’re ARMYs, or the BTS members, or your own family. And this, my (not so) tiny appreciation text, about my love to you is also 8401 words long. Happy birthday, Jung Hoseok, I hope you can have the best birthday in your whole lifetime and that you enjoy The Wings Tour the most, you deserve the best always, my love.