- 161121 ; i could have the worst day with not a single thing gone right, but thoughts of you would still make me smile and my heart swells with happiness whenever i see you.
- 161122 ; i hope you know that i'll always be here for you, and i'll always be willing to listen to anything and everything that's on your mind. and whatever it is i will never judge you, and i will love you all the same.
- "when i'm having a bad day, i think about your smile. if you're having a bad day too, relax and lean on me."
- 161124 ; you already know i'm beyond clingy and i don't have the best temper, but you tolerate all my tantrums and you have so much patience with me. i'm probably still terrible at expressing but i want you to know that i always, always feel so grateful to you. thank you for everything.
- 161129 ; even when we're being worked to the bone, i still would prefer spending time with you than to catch up on sleep; because "you're addictive". i just love talking to you a lot. and even when i'm so tired the things i say are incomprehensible, you still put up with all my nonsense. you don't get annoyed or push me away and that's part of what makes me love you more than i already do.
- 161201 ; "i'll be by your side, i'll tell you it's okay. i'll tell you that everything's fine and you'll shine. you're precious to me. everything is going to be okay. you're the most important person to me."
- 161204 ; i guess i kind of lied when i said i wasn't lonely or sad whenever you aren't around. sure there are a number of hours of your absence i could survive in but. ugh. i want to be selfish and keep you all to myself. i miss you so much.
- https://youtube.com/watch?v=aOjpBKNlkzU
- 161206 ; "i saw that you were perfect and so i loved you. then i saw that you were not perfect and i loved you even more."
- 161207 ; i love you more than anything else. more than our petty arguments and more than the distance between us. i love you so much i'd learn to be patient for you. i want to work things out between us, i don't want to throw any of this away. you're so precious to me, i never want to lose you. even though we're so different, i'll learn to understand you and love every part of you. i can't even begin to imagine a life without you, i don't want to.
- 161208 ; "till death do us part, they say. i say, i will love you till this life to the next. and if next life won’t grace me with you, i will still love you till the next one, and the next, and the next, till death finally give up on us."
- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=71SvPulAyZI
- 161212 ; i'm so happy i'm so happy i'm so happy i'm so happy i'm so happy i'm so happy i'm so happy i'm so happy. i'm so so so happy. i woke up and you were the first thing on my mind and knowing that you love me and you're mine put me in a good mood immediately. i love you so much and this is an understatement.
- 161215 ; "ask me to define my love for you and i'll say it's captured in every beautiful memory of our past, detailed out in vivid visions of our dreams and future plans, but most of all it's right now, in the moment where everything i've ever wanted in my life is standing right in front of me."
- 161216 ; "love makes you crazy." this must be very true. i've been sitting by myself for more than three hours with this giant stupid ass smile on my face and occasionally giggling at nothing but the thoughts of you, you and you. oh my god i've never felt more mental than this- maybe except that one time i stared at coconut cubes in a bottle. i don't remember the last time i was as happy as i am now (aside from the times that we were together, obviously).
- 161217 ; update: still in a very good mood because of you. i can safely and honestly say that i'm no longer lonely or sad even during times we're apart. of course i still miss you, but every moment that we spend together are so much more precious and i don't even know how to start explaining this but in a way, i grew in a lot of positive ways because of you. my cheeks are hurting because i've been smiling so much.
- 161219 ; less than a week to christmas and i find myself panicking and i feel like i might throw up at the thought of showing you this page because. why did i think this was a good idea- i already want to hide my face somewhere. everything's still a mess though like how do i even put things together so it will seem pretty and something christmas-gift-worthy. oh my god my stomach feels funny i think i need to go hide in the shower for the next hour and reflect on everything i've done and should do.
- 161223 ; "there are going to be days where you're undone, stressed out, tired, spent. and i'll still love you just as much in these moments as i ever have, maybe even a little more, because it'll mean you let me get close enough to know the real you. that's all i want."
- 161224 ; um. i'm still kind of hesitant on this but. it's worse that this entire thing is like journal entries of the past one month of my life and having other people read your diary is probably one of the most embarrassing things that can happen. but that also means that i've written down exactly what i felt at that point in time and because i'm not someone who can easily convey their feelings into words, which is why i send you too many quotes and too many songs, i do hope these little moments give you a glimpse of how much you mean to me. i don't know what's the concept of this, initially i thought for this christmas my gift for you would be letting you know how much of a gift you are to me. i also realized that i haven't actually written you a letter before, and i was going to write one for this last post but i can't even remember what i wanted to say... i'm not even one that's extremely fond of special occasions because i get stressed about having to plan something special, and even though every single day with you is something worth celebrating and i wouldn't trade for anything with, i guess i'm taking this christmas as an excuse to do something special for a special person like you. please always remember that there's nothing i love more than you, and there's no one who loves you more than i do. back then i loved you because being with you makes me happy and i couldn't stand not having you physically next to me. but now i've learnt to trust you, appreciate you, and love you just because you're you and i want to be the one to keep making you happy, instead of the other way round. uh, i guess it could be explained in the types of love, where i might have been a little more mania than anything else but now what i have for you is (endless) agape love. how...cringy. anyway, i want to keep spending all the future christmases and new years with you by my side too, let's stay together no matter what happens okay? i love you so much, jeon jeongguk.
- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KIApmbyA_UE
nov 21 2016 ∞
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