ok, confession time now. this part has kind of been 'in progress' for a while; over the time i think about or spend time with you, some of these thoughts just come to me and i think you should have the opportunity to know (at some point. i'm sure i'll wake up on a non-sleep-deprived morning and reread this and feel like a huge tool) what you actually are, to me.

you're absolutely right in saying that you make me happy. just knowing i get to see you, or being around you, or thinking about it all is enough to put a massive anesthetic smile on my face, and honestly you have no idea (but you probably do c:) how lovely it is. you are my immediate thought upon hearing enchanted (by taylor swift OR adam young, though i prefer the adam version because it paces well when i mentally montage open house to it); which is great when i need to go to bed at night or wake up on lazy mornings.

you are the feeling of opening a new box of cereal (and getting to marvel at it in its prepackaged glory, all air-sealed and full of delicious noms), or comfy pajamas, or that feeling you get when you're not modding and hit a massive vein of coal in your minecraft cave. you make me feel like i've entered a muji store or bought a new, colorful EHD every single day - but even BETTER.

you are the baman to my piderman, and the strawberry pop tart to my nyan cat. you are the bangs to allll of my popcornz, and the raspberry mango cheesecake to my sunny adventures (or the other way around, technically). you are the sudan to my australia, the rainymood to my fireplace/jazz combo, the floating island to my gazebo, the basement cat to my ceiling cat (*i like to think they're actually really tight, despite all the tr0lling).. the hyperbole to my half, the C and G to my colon, the ron to my hermione (SORRY, I HAD TO, IT WAS HILARIOUS, OK ;D), and the interchangeable sideways hat to my OK stick man. and so, so many more things that i'm going to refrain from adding - for the sake of not being any more of a tool than i already am.

which brings me back to letter #1 (the pink one): when i mentioned strangers again. i thought of the unicorn analogy, and thought about you. and i have come to the conclusion that you are so much better than a mythical horse person. (<- centaur? ololol)

you are, in essence, my favorite (er.. only) lobby dance friend. you are my fave technical director, the most swagged out white rapper/minecraft baller, and the cutest link thus far. you're my favorite red inbox (1) on facebook, a good deal of my 'letters to crushes' bookmarks and the reason i think open house mood lighting is the most romantic lighting in existence. you are my 'fix you', most of 'juno' - and yet so much more than all of that too.

so i guess now that it's all out (and i STILL feel like i'm forgetting something totally key!), you can hopefully see that there are truly a million reasons why i like you, and i like this. it's 1:54 AM, and i've got art class in the morning, and am feeling pretty tired - and definitely have a long day before me, but i feel happy and content for tonight. my headphones are filled with the fix you datsik remix you posted on my wall, and my mind is filled with.. well, this.

i think one thing about strangers again that struck me most was that last scene, where marissa wonders about what might happen should they not end up 'ultimately together', and josh tells her he'd remember when their paths aligned for that period of time and he would be thankful.

i hope that whatever happens, we'll both be able to remember this relationship - the two of us, as we are now, and be thankful it happened. it'll be interesting to come across these later on, and see what's changed or stayed the same. tonight, i still stand by the fact that i'm an incredibly lucky girl, you are an incredibly wonderful boy, and i'm SO, so glad this all worked out the way it did. i'm excited to see where we go, and what we do, and how we'll be later on. but in the meantime, it's ACTUALLY off to bed, and i guess.. we'll just see how it goes from there.

thank you for walking up to me that night in november, thank you for asking me that night in march, thank you for all of the times in between and since, thank you for being who you are; i wouldn't want to change a thing, and i never have. and thank you for everything else.

<3