╾ 16th

i saw you today. and i'm sure it was you. not the same as the other times. this one i'm 100% sure.

i always looked for you and the pearl acqua sign, i looked everywhere no matter where i'd go, i kept looking for anything, any sign. i guess its true that things happen when we least expect it. today i wasnt in a good mood and the day was almost over, i was at the beach looking at the sky, missing you. but i wasnt looking, i wasnt expecting it. if it wasnt for my friend's dad i wouldnt even see it. he showed me the pearl acqua space in the sky and i just couldnt believe it.

i was suddenly so happy. finally it was my turn to see you somewhere, finally you were giving me a sign, finally you told me you're there, you're listening to me, you're watching me and you're fine. you want me to be fine.

the thing is: i'm not sure yet if i can be fine.

i was happy, i was glad and right now i'm in such a good mood because i saw your signal. but i dont know how long it will last. i dont know myself anymore to be honest. but i rather not to think, its better for me if i just... live. day after day and see how it goes.

but really, thank you.

thank you for showing me you're there. you can see me and i'm not talking to the wind; i'm talking to you indeed.

thank you for showing me some light, for showing me the thing i wanted to see the most. not only the acqua pearl but in the sky, where i love the most right now, where i can feel you and talk to you and look at you. maybe now i can feel a little happier when looking at you, knowing you're there and you can see me and you know how i'm doing.

you care about me.

i'm just... i still speechless. i was always running out of words but now its even worse and that's okay, thats good. i feel good.

i love you. i really love you. i love you so much and i wish i could thank you the way you deserve, but now i know you can see how much i'm thankful, i can see that you really do watch me down here.

thank you. and today too, i miss you.