╾ 17th

its no news, i know that i say that almost everyday but today i missed you. i wanted to cry. i could feel the emptiness again. the acqua pearl sign made me happy and i still think about it but i was wrong; it was not everything that i needed to be fine.

i'm still not fine.

deep down i know that its still not true to me, i still "refuse" to believe it. i see you and i keep thinking you're still here. theres just no way you're far away. theres no way you're somewhere so far away like heaven. theres no way you're "invisible" now. just... no.