╾ 31st

yesterday i cried myself to sleep again. i was looking at the sky as i always do and i saw the moon; it was so bright, so shiny, just like you. and it all hit me.

i missed you. and i was so sorry for crying, for missing you, for loving you, for everything. i just couldnt hold it back.

and today, i miss you even more. its never less, it never stops. theres not a day i dont think about you and theres not a day i dont wish you'd take me with you.

its like... everyday i go to sleep hoping its all a lie. and everyday i wake up and realize its real, it happened, its still happening and it hurts all the time. i might get used to it, but its never going to fade.