╾ 2nd

i’m not going to say “everyday”, but every time it hits me, whenever i think of you... i still cant believe it.

i cant believe you’re no longer here, your body isnt here, we cant see you anymore. theres only your spirit and the thought of you, your memories. my heart just keeps breaking each day. literally a part of my body dies. a part of my soul disappear.

you know.. i feel like is strange for me to say that. i mean... dies it makes sense? i keep saying that i cant believe but i also keep saying that you’re not here anymore and thats why i’m in such pain. am i acknowledging it? the fact that you’re gone...? or am i just... denying it by saying things i dont believe or cant accept?

the thing is, i just cant let you go. i cant move on from this, from you.