╾ 19th

honestly, why am i here? i have no reason jongie. at all. i have no talents, i have no real aspiration, i have nothing.

i try to be nice kind and comprehensive with others so they might like me... but i have no one. i lost everyone. they just.. never stay. no one. so tell me, why am i still here?

i keep seeing your face, your smile. i dont know... sometimes i think you’re watching me and you’re keeping me here because you think i’m doing ok, i mean, i’m kinda moving on somehow... but whenever i ser you or think of you all i want is to go with you. its been too long jongie and nothing has really changed for me.

i’m all alone. i feel empty. i’m just a body trying to blend and “fit in”, i’m just somehow trying to be what others expect of me.

i hate it. i miss you. i wanna be with you. i wanna feel peace and i want to feel that peace by your side, seeing you smile.