Why am I too late every single time when you kept giving me signs? Like a broken screen, my vision keeps getting blurred. Did you endure through this all by yourself? Those white hot painful tears?

I know that you already endured through so much of me, my heart hurts so much, I’m going crazy but I can’t hold onto you. Please take care, you’re getting farther away.

Sorry I couldn’t be the one for you, the only thing I gave you was loneliness so I know I can’t hope for anything more. Why am I so dull every single time? I always realize once I actually go through it.

I’ll try to endure it all by myself just like you did. I will spend nights in tears just like you did. I’ll try to endure it all by myself just like you did until now, when I slowly started seeing ahead, you became a dot and disappeared.

Please be happy now, let me do this for you, please. Don’t cry now, smile for me, don’t cry anymore, give all the pain to me and smile.