- you are my oldest and most special soul friend
- i'll never forget our first grade recess adventures, convinced we were digging up real dinosaur bones for weeks or finding 'indian clay' underneath the old metal fire truck
- you were my favorite hand game partner and pebbles was our favorite
- taking naps in daycare, we would whisper to each other across the mats and giggle until we fell asleep
- when the girls didn't kick you out, you were the only boy allowed in our secret hamburger meetings at the park
- i'm sorry i would sit on top of you and make you eat catalpa bean pods
- you taught me a hugely important lesson in jr. high when you pulled me aside and cried to me and told me that you didn't think i loved you anymore because i didn't say anything when a was mean to you all the time-- you cried and i hugged you and i became so much more aware of how much my friends could be hurting without me noticing
- you wanted to be popular in jr. high so bad and i didn't during the day, we didn't always talk, but after school we would lay on the grass together and laugh for hours
- you stayed the night at my house once and i did your makeup and you had an orthodontist appointment in the morning but we didn't care and stayed up all night and accidentally broke glow sticks all over the carpet and the police came because we were playing with flashlights
- when you came over to hang out with me in high school and you came out to me, i know it was scary (even though i had come out years before) but i still feel privileged that you wanted to tell me and i'll always keep your high school secrets
- you came to my choir concerts and i went to see you in grease
- you called me randomly a few months ago because you were moving out on your own for the first time and you were sitting in front of your new apartment and having a bit of a melt down - we talked and you felt better and i felt at peace
- you're the only friend that i've always said i love you to
- we were always so affectionate that people would think we were a couple, we would hold hands and cuddle and take naps together
- it was so weird to be taller and bigger than you as a five year old and then watch you grow and grow until you were over six feet and had more muscles than anyone i've ever met
- i never forget your birthday and i think about frequently, but we don't see each other or talk as much as we should-- it doesn't really matter because we're the friends that can not talk for years and as soon as we see each other and hug, we're five years old again
- i always tell people that it's different kind of friendship when you've seen each other poop their pants (everyone does it in kindergarten, right?)
- thinking about you always makes me smile to myself
- our spirits are kindred, they're soft and sweet despite what anyone else knows or sees in us
- you're beautiful and i love you
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