“sometimes i cry because i’m so scared of losing you. then i remember you love me more than anything just like i do and i feel warm. i love you soulmate.”

I am always afraid, afraid of losing you, afraid that you will stop loving me, but more importantly, I am afraid of not making you feel the same emotions that I always made you feel. i'm weak, i feel broken all the time, i'm insecure. I feel that at any moment you will leave me and simply say that you found someone better. and it hurts. how it hurts to think it straight, at any moment, at any moment, when you say something unintentionally or stop saying something to me, my heart withers so much, it hurts, it burns, it burns, I feel like all my organs have been torn apart every instant I imagine a life without you being my girlfriend.

but.. then you just show up. you help me, you save me from all these suffocating thoughts. you remind me that all of this is unreal, and that we are fine, that we are going to be together, and that most importantly: you love me. and I love you, very much. I trust your words that you love me and just love me, you want to be with me the same intensity that I want to be with you, and we will be together, for a long time. our first year together of many and many that we will be, above any barrier, any problem, anything that may appear. we will always get over it, and i am sure you will be by my side in any situation that may arise, just as i will be by your side.