- Hey, hello. It's me I was wondering it after all these years... ok, it's not too much time. Stop with Adele.
- Well, I've been thinking about a lot of things, but I miss to have someone to tell these things. Stupid things like share the day, how I feel about everything. I watched a movie, "Her", with two friends last Saturday. Interesting movie about sadness, about relationships, technology, how the world would be in some years. I don't understand the end. I'll watch again in a few days, because I didn't accepted this f end. I hate stories that don't tell me the final. Whats happen later?
- I suppose to be going to work right now, I said its ok to go today, but is not, so I didn't go. I'm feeling that I quit something again, it's not a good feeling, but if I go, it will be worse. I don't want to see all of then again, or say "goodbye forever". Or just spend my time and money going to somewhere I don't belong anymore. Or say an empty "thanks for everything". I didn't want to feel ungrateful, but the days working was only for money, I've woke up everyday and asked myself "why are you doing it with yourself? you're feeling lonely, strange, fat, you're eating too much because you're sad, your life is not good, the money can't buy your peace, tinder will not find a good guy for you, blablabla". I really wanted to feel grateful because I learn a lot, about me and about others. And sometimes I didn't wanted to learn so many bad thing about humans. I see kindness, but lies too, I see friendship, but with interest, I see faith but intolerance... I felt unfaith in humanity. Something is wrong with this world, everybody are slaves of money, of power. Discrimination is the worse thing I can see in everybody around me. If they knew anything about me... Rules that don't make any sense, just for try to know if you're good or not in follow then.
- I wanted to someone say to me that it was a good decision, because I know it was the best for me, but I want acceptation to be so selfish.
- How is your work going?
- I can't remember what I wanted to say to you before I start to wrote. It was a thank you.., I don't remember why.
jan 4 2016 ∞
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