- so i've realized my flaw
- it's not what everyone else thinks of me that bothers me
- it's what i think of myself
- i've gathered all these opinions,
- listening to others talk about others
- watching people and coming up with my own conclusions
- it's my own fault i have such low self-esteem
- i just push myself too hard
- but how do i stop?
- is it not right to always strive to be the best you can?
- i refuse to believe i have reached that
- maybe it's just that i'm too lazy to actually put in the effort required that i'm disappointed when i see that i'm not improving
- i think that's it
- i put in zero work
- so, i guess i change it
- i've been so worried making sure i'm not sad
- that i've made myself even sadder
- i just have to work harder
- then i will do better at everything
- then i will like myself more
- then i will be closer to perfection
- then everything will be okay
may 8 2012 ∞
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