- 10122015: you should keep a journal. it helps. especially when you don't know who to talk to. life is crazy. and no one seems to understand. you don't want to keep moving any more. you got to though. you can do it. 20th is 7 days away. make that appointment. you can do it. just stop bothering friends who don't really want to talk. who really wants to talk anyway. come one, you can do it. make it on your own. time to slowly fade out of people's life. stop contacting people. stop trying so hard. you need to stop. you are such a burden. cut the connection so you won't cause any more trouble when the time comes. stop looking for a relationship. you can't have one. you can't afford one. no one likes you like that. you know it. life is not what you thought it was. stop hoping so damn much. I don't know what to think any more.
- 10132015: I missed class today. I could have made it. I got up extra early for it today. I was fully prepared. I got to the class room an hour early. but I couldn't. I felt light headed. I was out of breath just standing there. I think I was afraid to be asked questions that I couldn't answer. I felt anxious just thinking about it. I went home. I almost ran. I immediately know I need help more than I expected. I should write it down till the appointment.
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