- 1201: today is just not a good day. Even the smallest thing went wrong.
- And the girls upstairs are practicing caroling for Christmas... at 1 am. And the occasional screaming... WTF
- What's with all the parties tonight. It's Monday.
- I am going crazy. I don't know who to talk to. Let's just try to focus on work.
- 1202: productive day somewhat.
- Mujadara
- I just realized what it is. I am writing it down.
- I am glad I put the music on random, and it's playing the right songs.
- 1203: I told myself I can do this at least 20 times today. I will keep telling myself the same thing tomorrow. And the day after that.
- 1204: sweet and bitter dream. How can my dream be so complex?
- I am very conflicted about love. The conflicts and love itself bother sometimes me with fluctuating emotions that I can't control. And it is the worst at this stressful, busy time.
- I sometimes crave an opportunity to throw my life away for something meaningful.
- Well... I have to write them down somewhere.
- 1205: Productive day starting at 7.
- My performance is not bad under pressure. And I perform better under pressure for work that I don't love doing. Pressure becomes motivation.
- 1206: So much going on. Can't keep track of everything. Gotta remember the important ones!
- after working on the computer for too long, it felt a bit surreal to walk outside and see other people. Going crazy, yeah? I wish I have someone here. I don't know. Just here to remind me of life I guess.
- 1207: Sometimes, I wish I know how to say I need you before my conscious and logical sense held me back for all the right reasons.
- Feels kinda good to have regulars on my blog. I have fans? LOL
- 1208: I CAN DO THIS!
- three hours of sleep then start at 7:30!
- (Lab) Raspberry Pi B+ Day.
- I feel like I am in a really dark place right now. I hope the sun comes out soon.
- Hearing from the people I care about made me feel better.
- 1210: Fuck this shit. I doubt the guy will be give me a good grade on it. I have no idea what he wants in this code. NOBODY DOES! Just chasing the stars right now. I will try hard until the deadline tonight. If he fails me, fuck it. I have had enough stress and sleepless nights over it.
- 1212: I think I aced the final. So 3 As down! possibly one D but fuck that guy. Still stressed but better.
- 1213: I wonder if there was a moment that decided who I was to become, or the moment is yet to come.
- 1215: Don't know why I have to have at least 7 hour of sleep. Sleep is awesome but I need time.
- 1217: I did it! Semester DONE!
- 1218: Let's be positive and expect less. In face, let's expect nothing at all!
- 1219: I am organized and efficient when it comes to moving. Yay! I am awesome.
- 1220: fatigue. I don't even know how much I slept.
- no expectations thus no disappointment. Good job you! Learning to take people less seriously.
- 1221: Social anxieties help me isolate myself.
- 1222: Early morning. Productive morning. Musical morning. Feels like good things will happen.
- I don't feel like cutting my hair.
- 1223: Snow globe is simple but so much more work than anticipated, especially with this plan. hope it works. lol I hope it's worth it. Just a smile is good.
- Still don't feel like getting a hair cut. Who cares? poop
- good nap
- hands are glued.
- 1224: so I got that haircut...
- heart warming Christmas Eve.
- so happy. Simple joy with the Boydens.
- I wish I am better with conversations. Words just don't come out right away.
- 1225: Haven't slept this well and this much for so long. My insomnia WAS caused by stress.
- 1226: Got shit done! Yeah! Then Game! And Cooked awesome dinner.
- 1227: Early morning awesomeness. Insomnia but better. 5 hour is all I need right
- 1230: Early morning tea and music. Feeling a bit lost. Feeling a bit lonely.
- Out of nowhere I started to feel extremely sad and depressed and nothing I do is making it better.
- I wish I can talk to someone about it. But I think I have to deal with this alone, because it's quite a burden.
- 1231: I can do this.
dec 1 2014 ∞
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