• 2/7: recently been busy with Chinese New Year then lost the mood for journal entry. I am not upset. I don't know. just out of the whatever it is... still blog though. I think it's becoming a habit. I sometimes wish someone I know read my writing even though it sucks... but sometimes I am glad no one I know reads anything I write. It's complicated.
• 2/8: sadness and loneliness haunt me. how can I make anyone happy if I am just a miserable being... ; I don't know how to say I need you. ; I just realized the memory of having someone to open my heart to was just a dream. Turns out the last "heart to heart" was when my dear friend broke mine. It depresses me.
• 2/10: I thought about sending her some flowers, but there's a voice in my head telling me it'd be an inappropriate and selfish thing to do, wouldn't it... aaahh, still thinking about it.
• 2/13: getting up early and exercise DOES make the day more productive, except I am feeling sick again...
• 2/14: even though I am not really one to celebrate, I still send her my love and my joy. it makes me happy too. ; aaa, too much? i am so stupid!

oh I am just a fool.

• 2/20: test coming up in a few days. I am never ready for it. so bad at studying.
• 2/21: music gets me through the day... up and down... life. :) ; I think I've found my balance today.

it's okay la

"Love means never having to say you are sorry" - Erich Segal

• 2/25: the other day, I decided to share a stupid mistake so it would be a lesson learned instead of a shameful secret that I can never face..., even if it means consequences. I don't regret it, especially when the listeners are the people I love.
• 2/26: aaaa whatever! Nap!
• 2/27: FOUND IT!! The good luck! XD
• 2/28: I wonder what I am to her now. Less or more? ; somehow can't get enough sleep like 8hr isn't enough. waaa?