• 5/1: sudden frustration, impatience and slight depression... perhaps the crowd, perhaps the weather... probably the crowd. Gotta remember to bring my music. should go to sleep earlier today. ; the new spiderman movie was pretty awesome. ; somehow, I keep getting these offers... getting better and better... I don't know.

"If you don't want to do it, don't waste your time on it."

• 5/2: Running around between cities.
• 5/3: Great show of modern art.
• 5/4: There's no home like place... whaat?
• 5/5: Peter's birthday, but at a distance. productive day!
• 5/6: mindful of things. gar? I really hate my insecurity
• 5/7: music? MUSIC!
• 5/8: got things done but need to focus more.
• 5/9: First press conference! Cool!

"I think you just gotta have the bad days, so you can love the good days even more."

• 5/10: I miss it. I missed it. I think I need to get to know everyone again.
• 5/11: whenever I feel like I am failing life, so terrible and depressed, I listen to music, read and feel awesome instead.
• 5/13: attending a close friend's wedding has more to prepare than I expected, or maybe just "international weddings" in general...
• 5/14: The burning sun can be a motivation killer.

bet I will hear this on the radio: http://youtu.be/m-j-n-XJ-Tg

• 5/15: so, I am a good friend... at a distance. Not so good when I am around? What should I think of this? People should be honest. I feel so stupid.
• 5/16: I don't have that mcuh cloths after all.
• 5/17: I guess that is why I play video games. I can win and I am so good at it. I just need a win sometimes.
• 5/18: concluding today: LOL too much.
• 5/19: Life is quite depressing right now. But I can do it, right? I hope so.

"If you didn't give me your sweater, I wouldn't know I was cold."

• 5/20: Had the most terrible sleep last night since a long time. Her words continue to haunt me every time I get some news or updates of her. I sometimes wonder if she knew what she was saying. She just completely destroyed me and moved on with her life?

Going to Malaysia tomorrow. Should be a mood changer. First international wedding! Quite excited!