10/1

• long day. tired since it started somehow. glad Ama got what she needed.
• Simple happiness and love from Celicia, what else do I need? I feel lighter even with certain weights still on my heart. I think it's courage and strength that I've gained. Smile. :)
• This note just happen to be yellow. :D

10/2

• Well rested. Mind blank. huh?
• "If you believe in people long enough, they will eventually come through." 2. "I will be right back." "I will be right here." (so sweeet!)
• The awesome in-bed table I suggested Ama is just awesome!
• The Big Bang Theory Season 09 Episode 01. Too bad I couldn't be like Sheldon - be rational about everything and tell Penny "Hey, here's something else you don't know about me. You just hurt my feelings."

10/3

• Watched Oblivion. It was unexpectedly a very good movie.
• Aquarium! Seals! Penguins! Fish! Jelly!
• Interestingly and embarrassingly correct: http://youtu.be/jd2fuovmRSI

10/7

• 3rd day in Portland. Enjoying the weather and geeky old friends.
• "To die by your side is such a heavenly way to die." The Smiths
• Powell's Books! Bookstore library! Awesomeness!
• .. / .-.. --- ...- . / -.-. . .-.. .. -.-. .. .-
  • I am happy because of it and because I am happy I do.
• Aaaaahh, frustration from breaking something perfectly functional and relatively new (earphones that mom got me D:) got me rolling around (love to roll around feels good) and trying to work it out physically (with push ups and such...). daaaaaaaa

10/8

• Up early trying to take that photo but it ain't sunny today... D:
• "look for all kinds of excuses to chat..."

10/9

• I don't know what I am doing. I should figure out soon.
• A smudge of sadness that I can't quite wave off.
• Skyped Daniel. :)

10/10

• That was a really ninja restaurant - no signs, can't see the inside, small entrance... but really awesome Japanese food.
• Headache after a heated debate about coding and math (And I was right! XD). Perhaps just haven't been thinking for too long... but I still got it. :P

10/12

• Mailed stuff out! Peter is going to be so happy. :)
• I can't identify the weight on my heart. What is it!?

10/13

• larry going back to canada. the end of tri-pot. gaaa.
• Good song. http://youtu.be/QBThbLtYCB0
• NOW I know why people hug pillows. It feels damn good to hug and hold on to something; ah, I think I like cuddling. oh no, I will be a pillow hugger.
• TV Series catch up day!

10/14

• KTV at home with Jesse. Screamed our lungs out. Lost my voice. Funtastic! XD

10/15

• Lonely morning tea time.
• Played 2 hours of volleyball with Intel people. Good work out! I still got it!
• Longing.

10/17

• Got my art supply. Planing on that mini art session tomorrow.
• Aristotle's quotes! http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/authors/a/aristotle.html
• Okay, The American Geosciences Institute's web interface really needs updates!! Especially on their Publication system!! Garrrrr
• It hurts a bit... a lot. I am quite envious, but I am more depressed because of me. I need to control it. I wish I can. ah, life... sad face.
• I am thinking about getting an iphone. It's actually so much cheaper to get in Oregon. I can, but I am hesitating for the most depressing reasons that I can only share with myself... How stupid.

10/18

• Morning tea and reading.
• Artist afternoon! Blasting Music and throwing paint! Accidentally used too much water for one of the color. -> longer time to dry the first layer. Now it will take another day or two to finish everything.
• Read an hour of Howel's Moving Castle while waiting on paint to dry. Fun book! :D
• Just when we thought we beat the game by killing what seemed like the final boss. There's a traitor among the NPC and summon the ultimate boss... whaaaaaat
• I wonder, why I miss them, miss her, so much. Rationally thinking, there's really no point in this human thought process, is there? ah, love.

10/19

• Kaskade morning.
• Woodkid!
• After the (planned) first layer of the painting dried off, the color blend is better than expected!! Not sure if I want to put on the second layer. Gar!
• Mini-golf! Great first time!
• Korean Mexican food!! whaaa...!
• Despicable Me 2! Lucy Wilde is so funny and so happy. Reminds me of Celicia.
• The Croods is a lot better than I expected.
• A bit down that I couldn't chat with Celicia, but I understand.

10/20

• "Goodbye, my love. I must take a voyage to the spice island." = old english: I've got to poop.
• PB&J's creative sandwiches!
• Portland Japanese Garden! Really is Japan in Oregon!
• Rose Garden! Too bad tis not the season

10/21

• Immersed myself in the feeling. Love is a wonderful thing.
• Throw paint layer 2.
• Cooked awesome steak for self. It is just so awesome!
• Cooked steak dinner for Jesse. Got the whole thing set up and it looks like a fancy dinner. XD Got 7.5/10. Not bad! :D
• It came to me that I really like to roll around.

10/22

• Life.
• Bad dream.
• Good walk in Portland and the bookstore!
• Late night depression...

10/23

• Stay positive. Even if I don't believe in myself, I shouldn't lose faith in the people I love.

10/24

• Cheap Dessert for lunch. aaaaa, too sweet!
• Art project 01 finished. :D

10/25

• Lemon Chicken
• Yama sushi

10/26

• Brunch
• Shopping and touring IKEA
• Basketball! ah, so out of shape.
• Bar, food, watched the world series. Ah, more comfy on the couch in PJs.
• The Americans is a great show: Drama, Romance, Suspense, Conspiracy, Actions, Life lessons, Comedy

Jesse: well, I am going to get some food. Me: I don't feel hungry. Still full from yesterday. aaa, don't want to get up. (lying on the couch/bed) Jesse: Are you gonna keep sleeping? Me: Nah, I am getting up. (Got up) Ah, after standing up, I feel hungry now... How about Gyro? Jesse: ... (palm head)

10/27

• Lazy day with "the Americans"

10/28

• I can easily find solutions to most of my friends' problems, but somehow I can never analyze my own well, especially when it comes to love.
• Nice walk out.
• More gift shopping.
• I guess I am not getting a smart phone.
• Late night tortured by my own imagination and thoughts.

10/30

• Consult expert Kim on LDR. I am like WOW, awww, and m-hmm.
• Now, looking for the right time to share this beating heart. Maybe the next time?

Jesse: It means she's at least thinking about me when she's sending me pictures. [good for you bud :]