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being a person didn't come naturally to me the way it seemed to for others. people who were sure of themselves awed me. i studied them and tried to mimic their ease.

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• detach.
• let it end.
• acccept the situation.
• move on.

𝐢 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭...

we’re not that important anyway. so maybe we should stop trying so hard to be digestible. let people stare. let them misunderstand. let them choke on who we are.

everything already feels bitter enough. might as well force some sweetness into it. talk too much. ruin the silence. care harder than you should. be reckless with your existence.

god, i hate being perceived. it feels like standing under a spotlight with nowhere to hide. but shrinking myself never saved me either. being quieter, smaller, easier. none of it fixed anything.

the truth is, i’d rather feel too much than nothing at all.

so let me burn through it properly.

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穏やかな人が好き。 言葉をちゃんと選んで、声を荒げたりしない人。 見せびらかすためじゃなく、ただ静かで穏やかに生きていて、少なくとも誰かを傷つけないようにしている人。

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this website was made with insomnia. best viewed at 3am.

japanese-korean. born in 1998. virgo. living in osaka, somewhere between the little he knows about himself and everything he still wants to uncover. raised by strict teacher parents, which explains the discipline, the quietness, and the permanently ruined sleep schedule. distant with most people, painfully talkative with the few he lets stay. sippo’s dad (dog).

runs a hidden little bar tucked away somewhere in the city. live alternative bands at night, quiet reading club during the day. most people only ever see the first half of it. the second is reserved for the ones he actually likes.

curious. artistic. restless. impossible to satisfy. drinks more than he should, gets irritated too easily, cares more than he admits. trying to quit smoking. failing gracefully. loves flowers like an old woman at heart and survives almost entirely on caffeine and bad decisions.

this is a character account, so spare me the out-of-character questions. +𝟏𝟖 𝐨𝐧𝐥𝐲. i might get into heavier topics sometimes, just keep that in mind.

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life is strange, isn’t it? one minute you’re completely drawn to something, ready to give everything for it. then time passes, your perspective shifts, and suddenly it all feels faded. “what was i even seeing in this?” you wonder.

the quiet thrill of not being for everyone. #killtheaesthetic

𝗠𝗔𝗞𝗘 𝗧𝗛𝗜𝗡𝗚𝗦 𝗨𝗚𝗟𝗬 𝗔𝗚𝗔𝗜𝗡.

⠀⠀ ⠀♪ 𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐢𝐧𝐠…

• giveon - keeper
• bored - deftones
• murder - schrödinger
• radiohead - lucky
• horizer - francesca
• naive - the kooks
• radiohead - no surprises
• whore - in this moment
• butterflies - brent faiyaz
• muse - undisclosed desires
• guns n' roses - patience
• avenged sevenfold - victim
• frank ocean - self control
• jack harlow - all of my friends
• graphic nature - deftones
• pet grief - the radio dept
• when the sun hits - slowdive
• homesick - wave to earth
• chicago - michael jackson