november/december

• in dec, saw lovelyz
• in dec, went to bts photo exhibit
• in dec, went to a free concert to see bts
• teaching/school is shit

october

• went to busan alone for ngt48, bangtan - also saw exo, red velvet, got7, b1a4, etc.
• saw jonghyun in concert

august

• getting into bangtan/bts. rip me :---)
• married to the music pre-recording at mucore
• infinite concert
• summer camp was kinda hell

july

• 18-19: went to 수덕사 temple stay with sbu kids, sbu professors, & random ass american high school kids. was a diaster. hwang asked if my hair was real?? wtf. sohn was an asshole who didn't read my fucking essay & apparently didn't like my research topic ok?? high school kids were rude w/e. i liked taking the train and i did the 108 bows challenge (+ got a necklace for my efforts) and mediated for 40 minutes straight though i kept my eyes open & saw a cat! then on sunday, izzy had posted in the nlisny whatever program fb that she didn't like the kids attitudes and shit. sohn got made lmao. same day, we (em, iris, me, mars, meg) ate papa john's and went to noraebang. idk homie.
• 23-31: vacation started. too bad i am spending it alone w/o friends since they r busy / have vacation at a different time and shinee's freaking repackage is pushed back :) :)

june

• talk workshop w/e i was glued to jenna
• saw shinee twice at MBC music core!!!

may

• 2: you can't trust anyone :) meg&jen fcked me over for no reason ok
• 2: lotte world
• 18: shinee cb!!!

february/march/april

• in korea
• don't and can't trust no one
• not meant to have friends
• spent birthday alone

january

• what am i? what is sexual desire? idfk. sexually, i feel asexual. in terms of attraction, 70% women and 30% men or something. bisexual? les? all of my little kpop boys are not hot to me anymore (since last summer tbh)
• marathoning the l word. very attracted to shane mccutcheon ( katherine moennig ) *o*
• 7-10: higher calling - religious retreat. i felt inadequate as a leader since i read the Bible but i don't properly study it. that's my fault. and i expected to feel an ~enlightenment~, a radical change, a real connection with God, to hear Him etc whatever that ppl from kccc experience. i didn't.
• stopped watching porn because idiot, it's anti-feminist and disgusting and women are raped 1) on set and 2) because of it
• after seeing her 129912 times on radfem and/or les tumblogs, i have fallen in love with kristen stewart. marathoned the runaways, welcome to the rileys, and camp x-ray. then proceeded to watch random interviews of her :)
• have spent an extensive time reading about radical feminism (vs liberal feminism) and trans politics (transwomen r male ok) on tumblr
• PREPARING FOR MY TRIP TO SOUTH KOREA