MAGNUS or AHAB / 🗡️

> a description of the part. don’t make it boring or too long. interaction status.

identity

• name: magnus ahab hammersmith
• nicknames: mags, old thunder, the hammer
• age: 41
  • b. 11/28/1973
• identity: bisexual cis man
• pronouns:
  • he/him/his/himself
• species: came back wrong. been referring to himself just as a corpse lately to make it easier
• vibes:
  • have fun with this one.
• philosophy:
  • i am dead. i do not connect with the living world on a meaningful level.
  • i deserve respect exactly as i am and should not have to change my morals in order to please the general populace. people must challenge their morals in order to fully understand them.
  • i have done something wrong that i must atone for until i am forgiven.

system

• roles:
  • host
    • since early 2024
  • persecutor-protector
    • a self-sufficient trigger exposure machine that makes us get comfortable with things that are hard to stomach
  • symptom holder
    • ptsd, paranoia, “psychosis”, physical disability
    • “what crazy really looks like”
• pertinent experiences:
  • outbursts and trauma reactions; feeling specific triggers regarding success; “falling into obscurity” with a very sudden change of life path
  • holds the “and then they’ll all be sorry” complex that aotd did not make any fucking better
• pertinent pseudomemories:
  • having a bad home life with two siblings; eventually leaving home
  • being in a relationship with pickles that was very borderline
  • time with the revengencers
• pertinent dates:
• pertinent symptoms:
  • paranoia and some related psychosis as mentioned
  • claims our adhd but not our autism
  • impulsive and reckless; deals with bpd and hypersexuality
  • has very strong memories and substitute beliefs
  • copes with disability pain in legs and hands, and “inflicted” pain
• source:
  • magnus hammersmith (metalocalypse)
  • captain ahab (moby dick)
• innerworld:
• fronting behavior: always around as of late.
• front tells:
  • laughs very loudly, cackles; generally has a loud voice
  • adjusts our body a lot, fidgets

personhood

• personality: entp-t & sagittarius. passionate with emotions that reach into the extreme. fights through his nature to be kind and often has to be forced to “turn the other cheek”. generally even and sociable around those he doesn’t know well.
• archetypes + tropes: the dreaded / shadow archetype / ambiguously evil / cool old guy
• appearance:
  • like 5’10-11. tan skin, covered in dark hair. scars on his left arm and legs; one long one from head to toe on the left side of his body. tattoos everywhere. very thin and bony.
  • tattoos include EADG on his left fingers, I AM ALIVE under his left wrist, a couple daggers/knives, and other stuff. lots of tiny ones.
  • dark brown kinky hair, 20% gray. has a long goatee and a lot of scruff. dark brown eyes, though one is gray and scarred (and lazy); has a scar on his face and further down. resting face can be described as “suicidal”.
• face & voice claim:
• presentation:
• language style: Proper caps and punctuation. Abbreviates and uses slang on occasion. Loves the fuck word so much he gets made fun of.
• internal relationships:
  • doesn’t get along with most people. openly despised by skwisgaar and jones
  • taken care of by his best friend, river
  • has a “biological” child in-system
  • handcuffed to gaear against his will
  • on tense terms with showalter. it’s like herding cats with you people
  • has a special relationship with “the urge”
• external relationships:
  • has an ex
  • wants to be himself more around string and dante
  • considers himself the closest with jack out of all of us
• likes: listening to music and music theory, body modifications, accessories, poetry and prose, the outdoors, late nights, society and observing the human condition, sociology, internet history and horror, gratuitous gore, film, sex and kink, … homestar runner, jenny holzer
• arrival triggers: his source, adjusting our spine, gore or other disturbing content, getting hurt, having a syncope or starting to feel it
• dislikes: going to bed, driving, the holidays, not being taken seriously, puritans and the morally righteous
• departure triggers: (code this in some way, maybe list in private)
• activities + hobbies + skills: likes writing and consuming new media. got really into listening to new albums. better at handling things that trigger us or make us uncomfortable.
• spirituality: delusional

associations

• kinlist:
  • his introjectisms count here too i think
  • there are also various kins he’s had that have become their own guys
  • bogged skeleton (minecraft)
  • dr. cox (scrubs)
• lyrics + words:
  • i try to hide myself from what is wrong for me
  • the blade has always done its job well / seems like its work is never done
  • save yourself, don’t wait on me
  • the knife cut runs as long …
• playlist: link here
• music taste:
  • metal, grunge, rock. 2010’s melodic metal, abrasive goregrind, some nu metal. wants to get into more oldhead shit
  • fav bands include alice in chains, kyuss, cannibal corpse, acid bath, seether, soad, soundgarden
  • very keenly aware of how his music taste makes him appear to others and deliberately tries to avoid listening to things that may be considered “lame”
• food preferences: likes berry flavors.
• substance preferences: prefers smoking pot
• other favorites:
  • animal: goats, sheep
  • bird: herons, cranes
  • number: 6
  • artist: jenny holzer

in closing

• testimonials:
  • “he’s made of twigs and hope.”
• interaction notes: open to interaction and very social. loves to hear about your day. however he is delusional and might say things that align with his beliefs. don’t reality check him (only our loved ones can when asked)
• ask to front?: would be honored to know someone wanted to do this /lh
• emoji: