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i'm trying to make sense of the things i enjoy
also i don't know how to use listography
all green notes are my own writing

bookmarks:
listography IMPORTANT NOTICES
eimochis mini au's
one twt au's
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hi!
  • lens of art school / being a creative VS. more broadly, coming of age and growing up
  • one of the most heartbreaking things is losing your sense of self or identity
  • harrowing, real, relatable
  • the hurt the characters experience that might go unspoken because we focus more on yaguchi
  • the realities of art school
    • talent vs effort vs time vs luck & its intersections
  • questions of purpose and belonging
    • whether or not we deserve a place
    • inferiority and insecurity
    • imposter's syndrome
  • how these doubts fester in ways you can’t control
    • you don’t want to confront the reality of your insufficiency or mediocrity despite all your efforts
  • struggles born internally, from self doubt; overcoming
  • growth as an artist
  • enamored, looking at the world through a new pair of eyes
    • excitement akin to childhood wonder
    • yearning for a time before understanding
  • to enter a world unknown, to experiment
    • to live for the first time again, uninhibited by your own fear of being (more)
  • an impassioned yaguchi looking more closely at his mother
    • normalcy, domesticity, tenderness
    • imagery of fish bones
    • food as a love language
  • the simplicity of "i think i kind of get it now"
  • the pressure of promising, of aspiring, of being
  • the anguish of yuka's character
    • of drowning while afloat
    • wanting more for yourself as you live for others
  • freedom and agency
  • hiding behind what's right, or what's "normal"
  • is this right for me?
    • what have i been doing this whole time?
    • what am i working toward?
    • why do i create?
      • why do i love?
    • is this medium right for me?
      • is this right for me?
  • is this a mistake
jun 12 2021 ∞
jun 8 2022 +