dialogue to remember for whenever i actually start my memoirs

• H- sometimes I miss you. you are comfortable. and it's not that i miss you as my boyfriend, but sometimes, i just miss you beause you were such a part of me. and sometimes, when you hold me, i feel complete again. like any part of me that was missing has returned home. and for that, i am sorry.

M- it's okay. it was good to come home tonight.

• While laying in bed, talking for hours after many drinks:

H-One day, he will realize how good I was to him, and he will realize the bad things he did to me, and he will know that he messed up. ONE DAY, he will see how much he hurt me, and all that he lost, and there will be regret. His disrespect, his unfaithfulness, his lies. One day he will regret being that person. K-One day he will realize all that he had put you through and he will become addicted to cocaine and hate himself. Because you WERE the best thing that ever happened to him. You were everything for him, and yet nothing to him. And because of it, he will want to waste away his life on drugs. Because when I think about it, when I think about what I did to you by having sex with your boyfriend, the one that took you ring shopping, the one you were planning to marry…when I think about how I treated you, it makes me want to do coke and waste away my life.