things that make me cry

• my relationship with my parents, especially my mom
• my relationship with my sisters
• how my dad is not interested on getting to know me
• my childhood, how lonely i felt as a child
• fights with my mom
• as much i can hate my mom, she has been there for me most of the times
• how much i love and admire shinee
• zayn (it doesn't make sense)
• stress over school, life and my future
• all the bad things my parents had said about me
• the "what if" questions that haunt me at night
• how much i miss being a child
• my past and my mistakes
• wondering how my life would have been of some things were different
• the possibility that i'm too hard to love
• feeling like i'm not enough
• losing people