— Wed, 31/5/23 ☆

☆ : urkkkkk random ppl are adding me (on spacehey) but your the type of person to be awkward when meeting new ppl / strangers : 😀😅😊😇🤷‍♀️

☆ : ranted abt my near life death experience, then sbt how im incapable of falling in love, I wanted to cry my eyes out, but I cant cuz.. parents😍🥰😇

☆ : my throat fucking hurtz after shouting😭😭💀💀 (my dad smh🙄🙄 /hj)

☆ : I swear im talking to a brick wall sometimes like my friendz never answer or reply back 2 me, like ????? mf answer omg, otherwise my texts gon’ be short, appreciate my long ass textz b4 they tirn into short textz😐😐🙄🙄 (I love them /p & I’d probs still send them long ass textz to them regardless)

☆ : yk whats so annoying? its when im trying to focus and do my examz or mock examz (i can only focuz on the paper if the room is silent) but the teacher keeps fucking talking, like BITCH STFU OR I’LL FUCKING LOSE MY PATIENCE AND TEMPER AND YELL AT YOU TO BE QUIET AND MY PAPER ON THE VERGE OF RIPPING.

☆ : back onto the topic of me swearing Im talking to a brick wall, like I dont know like do you even read my long ass textz I send you? do you even appreciate them? if you do read them, at least respond, even a reaction is fine, I just wanna know you read it and responded to them :/

☆ : I forgot what I wanted to say lol whoopsie daisy😊😊😇😇😍😍🥰🥰😋😋😛😛

☆ : I sometimes wonder if they actually do care abt me, like, would they defend me if im not around? do they actually appreciate me? do they actually like my company? do they actually like spending time w/ me? do they even enjoy being around me? do they even like me as their best friend? am I even their main bffs they’d go and talk to 24/7? I wish they could take a hint and understand my feelings, I wish I could open up to them and tell them how I feel, but its not easy :/

☆ : do they even read my rantz I send them? are they even reading this? probably not, but oh well

☆ : do they even get the hint I send them? I say the problem, they do it again. its the same, they’re all the same, does anyone even care? if I cried my eyes out, will there be anyone to wipe them away, they dont even know im crying my eyes out, I hate it how I often bottle things up and keep them to myself, I hate myself sometimes

☆ : appreciate my textz b4 it turns into them yk textz

☆ : do they even care? like if I suddenly died or disappeared, would they care?