• release music
• relearn guitar
• go to the uk
• publish writing-
• archive photos of people at gigs
• get a piercing?
• guest on a podcast or radio show
• get a tattoo
• give someone a tattoo
• make a yearly vlog 10 years in a row (oct 1st?)
• if you can't find a space, create a space so that others like you feel less alone
• alter your voice
• knit a usable object
• learn to sew
• see a therapist
• tell someone the story of your life. sparing no details.
• brew your own beer
• ride an overnight train

april 2022

• hits to the head - franz ferdinand
• hiss spun - chelsea wolfe
• vespertine - bjork

may 2022

• caligula - lingua ignota
• mr morale and the big steppers - kendrick lamar
• 13 songs - fugazi
• bile study - jade tourniquet
• moon pix - cat power
• sawayama - rina sawayama

june 2022

• fake can be just as good - blonde redhead
• pony - orville peck
• it's a wonderful life - sparklehorse
• laurel hell - mitski
• pink flag - wire

• ☆
• ⇜ ⇝
• ♂
• ✆
• ☁
• ☠
• ⦻
• ✶

• enfp 4w5
• aquarius sun
• libra moon
• gemini rising
• chaotic good
• night owl
• meaning quarterlifer

• gentle touch on bare torso
• jeff buckley's music
• spontaneous prose
• leaving a movie theater changed
• stargazing together. not a word between us.
• night winds. open plains
• candlelit bath
• the sound of thunderstorms
• heat lamps in dead of winter
• finding seaglass along a windy, rocky beach
• major-9th chords
• window seats on subways
• rose petal bathtub reading de beauvoir

underlying motif

• ✶ the lightning rod-- whether it’s your turbulent nature, your flash quick mind, or the air of unknown about you, your undercurrent is the lightning rod. you are somewhat unpredictable, but if we unravelled we’d see you know exactly what you’re doing, but it’s makes you feel less vulnerable to pretend it wasn’t planned. some people stay back from you, but others would follow you cross country, for the very same reason. they don’t know enough about you. the difference is in who wants to learn more. keep your golden nature, it’s exciting, but don’t be afraid to admit what you know. matshona dhliwayo said “lightning strikes but does not roar” your bite will always be worse than your bark, keep that close to your chest.

what do you attract?

• micron
• black moleskine
• wired earbuds
• chain necklace
• pumpkin bread
• chamomile tea bag
• the head on the door vinyl
• lent bukowski book
• art themed poker deck
• contact lenses
• worn sketchbook
• ilok on a usb port
• generation records pin
• brown sparkly eyeshadow
• black grid scrunchie
• heart-red washi tape
• knock-off vivienne westwood charm

concrete resolutions only.

• attend every 8:30am lecture
• work on music every day
• do assignments as soon as they are accessible

• physical - pretty sick
• something must break - joy division
• night shift - siouxsie and the banshees
• smoking section - st. vincent
• static hum - chelsea wolfe
• the rat - the walkmen
• shaking - pinc louds
• christian brothers - heatmiser & elliott smith
• lush - dean blunt
• heartbreaks + setbacks - thundercat
• cancer - kapitan korsakov
• popular - nada surf
• crank - catherine wheel
• you let my tyres down - tropical fuckstorm
• ballad of a thin man - bob dylan
• the funeral - band of horses
• silver soul - beach house

• local (preferably warm) lighting-- move clip-on lamp to makeup stand?-
• more stuff for the wall-
• nature, natural elements-- get some plants?
• handmake a mug, or at least buy a ceramic one
• tea holder
• warmth, subtlety.
• more pillows
• as analog as possible! no phones
• have a room you can invite others to
• a nice collection of sweaters
• take people out for coffee
• throw blankets
• wooden bowls
• vintage textiles
• pendant lights
• theatrical gels for your lamp
• cushion for stool
• get a shit ton of stickers

• accessory » silver chain necklace
• actress » natasha lyonne
• album » in rainbows - radiohead
• article of clothing » cargo pants
• band » blonde redhead
• body part » collarbone
• chocolate » 60% dark
• color » olive green
• fictional character » dean iron giant
• film » the truman show
• fruit » raspberry
• genre » character-driven psychological thriller
• hour » 11:00 PM
• instrument » bass
• month » october
• place » molasses books
• scent » secondhand suede jacket
• season » fall
• tea » blueberry
• time of day » dusk

ideally i dont have to get a wig for these

• toph beifong?
• agatha sge
• sophie sge (either could work!)
• literally any monster high char (draculaura? ghoulia?)
• alison breakfast club
• the red one from jawbreaker
• nancy the craft
• veronica heathers
• coraline
• nana osaki
• ebony dark'ness dementia raven way