• no scrolling in the morning
• eat before leaving for work
• regular at-home yin practice + sunday class (try new wednesday class?)
• intentionally choose nutritious colorful lunch
• play word games and crosswords during down time instead of scrolling/articles/etc

• PSL / pumpkin cream cold brew
• watch practical magic
• spook-ify thrifted art with a friend
• carve a pumpkin
• bake a pie
• make creamy mushroom wild rice soup
• vases of moody flowers

• manifestation journaling
• tarot
• evening walks and baths with my love
• meditation - create a sacred space
• yin class every sunday
• floss
• herbal infusions
• morning routine - q-less & tea, intention setting

create more ease:

• rethink the flow of the office so that there is somewhere to sit and read, somewhere special to meditate, less clutter, more intentional placement
• go to bed early enough that getting up isn't a battle in the morning
• practice methods of transitioning between tasks (use reddit as a resource for advice)
• minimal alcohol and best food possible to...

• vintage mirror by front door
• cool outlet covers
• plaid blanket
• quilt
• vintage bathroom hardware
• framed documents, papers, mementos
• wallpaper?

• cooking oils
• undies & bralettes
• makeup brushes
• bar soap
• wool socks
• etsy handmade mugs
• amber drinking glasses

• making fairy houses and moss gardens
• playing with polly pockets
• exploring the woods
• limited too glittery girly outfits
• discovering books by randomly picking something off the shelf
• "documenting" watching a movie in my journal
• staying up way too late watching music videos on MTV and the nanny or scrubs

• LMNT electrolyte powders (citrus and watermelon!)
• brown sugar cinnamon lattes
• album: eternal sunshine - ariana grande
• listography
• show: top chef
• discovering new podcasts (tape notes!)
• chocolate martinis
• solitaire
• spring cleaning

• stop sleeping in my makeup
• eat more veggies/whole foods
• take supplements
• nice earrings
• keep working on personal style
• lots of showers, use nice body wash and lotion
• go back to aussie hair products
• perfect makeup and skincare routines
• spend lots of time in the sun
• stay hydrated
• herbal infusions
• learn to play chess
• work on disc golf and pickleball skills
• dedicate time to write and punch needle

• weepah way for now
• black swan
• little women
• the prestige
• you've got mail
• blue is the warmest color
• ginger & rosa
• somewhere
• frances ha
• the girl with the dragon tattoo
• almost famous
• the virgin suicides

activities

• montserrat half-day trip
• palau de la música catalana
• la merce festival
• casa batllo music nights
• sagrada familia
• montjuic area: joan miro foundation, botanical garden, national art museum of catalonia

eat/drink

• Alaire at Hotel Condes de Barcelona - rooftop bar/restaurant

OUROBOROS

When were you the cause of your own undoing?

• i knew that someone was bad, but i ignored my innate knowing and pushed to gain their approval anyway. not knowing how to disregard people who didn't serve me.

WET NOODLE

What was deeply unsatisfying or a waste of time?

• watching a depressing TV show and realizing i invested my delicate emotions into a fictional piece of content that i knew was going to crush me and make me sad.

ACCOMPLISHED What was completed or came to fruition?

• i got a new job, so naturally and effortlessly!

PETTY THEFT

• jeune et jolie
• ginger & rosa
• eletrick children
• god help the girl
• sleeping beauty
• blue is the warmest color
• weepah way for now
• the moth diaries
• 17 filles
• sound of my voice
• 20th century women
• frances ha
• submarine
• lovesong
• american honey
• somewhere
• like crazy
• mistress america
• charlie bartlett
• another earth
• very good girls

• @cowb0ykai (athens, GA)
• @moonpie.tattoo (greensboro, NC)
• @jayceeshinetattoos (anderson, SC)
• @haley.tattoos (avl, NC)
• @peaceflowertattoo (avl, NC)
• @ink.by.brooke (avl, NC)
• @paynes___grey (avl, NC)
• @megankellyart (avl, NC)
• @sirenarosetattoo (hendersonville, NC)
• @foxandflame (avl, NC)
• @land.of.sky (avl, NC)
• @bonitto.ink (avl, NC)
• @astro.cat.tattoo (avl, NC)
• @carrion.beetle (raleigh, NC)
• @caveman_self_concept (avl, NC)
• @the.blood.vvitch (avl, NC)
• @tanglewoodtattoo (avl, NC)
• @nu.monti.tattoo (avl, NC)
• @themutemaker (avl, NC)
• @intuitive_tattoo (charlotte, NC)
• @ch3rry.chrome (avl, NC)

• florals and quirky lettering/illustration with pastels
• folk art and quily-inspired linocut prints
• small punch needle wall hangings and pouches
• watercolor made from natural pigment

• morning routine
  • charge phone in office
  • brush teeth, wash face, dry brush & moisturize
  • fresh clothes
  • make tea & pause while kettle boils
  • tea on the porch with gratitude journal
  • get ready for the day with music or podcast
• eating to heal
  • plan meals rather than just grabbing whatever
  • primarily vegetarian (vegan when possible)
  • protein-focused breakfasts
  • prep food the night before to take to work
  • skip pastries at coffee shops
  • learn more about nutritional content of p...

• Chase outdoor jazz
• Go on a nature walk
• Romanticize spring cleaning
• Journal in the morning while it’s still dark
• Miss your train stop
• Meditate while you run
• Host a picnic for your loved ones
• Surprise your dog with a new park – a big grassy open one
• Drive for an hour at dusk
• Walk for an hour at dawn
• Bike for an hour at noon
• Explore an esoteric hobby
• Collect parts of nature (shells, leaves, dries flowers, rocks)
• Make a campfire
• Play fetch under a full moon with your pup
• Find natural mirrors
• Research themed recipes

• how to hide an empire by daniel immerwahr
• the jakarta method by vincent bevins
• washington bullets by vijay prashad
• base nation by david vine
• blackwater by jeremy scahill
• the end of policing by alex s. vitale
• bring the war home by kathleen belew
• the shock doctrine by naomi klein
• on anarchism by noam chomsky
• the new jim crow by michelle alexander

authors: angela davis, george jackson, ijeoma olue, amanda seales, assata shakur, ibram kendi, zora neale huston, emmanuel acho, marc lamont hill, bell hooks, frantz fanon, huey newton

Other suggestions: Patriotic Dissent by Daniel Sjursen, War is a Racket by Smedley Butler, and Worth Fighting For by Rory Fanning

• homemade biscotti
• homemade granola
• tufted fabric hoops
• puzzles
• dried or felt flowers in a thrifted vessel
• homemade coffee syrups
• bubble bars & soaps from lush
• handmade journal/notebook
• framed print by a local artist
• plants
• hair comb or scalp scrubber

• join coffee shop star programs to get free rewards
• download the starbucks app to get free rewards
• download the target app & use coupons, deals etc.
• free hobbies
• use the library and only buy copies of books that i loved & would read again or can't find at the library and really want to read
• thrift shopping
• sell items on depop
• always shop the sales at publix
• repair or rework clothing i already have
• try to use less water and heat
• look into shops where you can bring your own container and fill with spices, etc.
• look for free or cheap things on offerup, nextdoor, etc.

• cook:
  • pad see ew
  • southern tomato pie
• finish watching a single man & my octopus teacher
• stop apologizing for taking up space
• roll over 401k
• eat more vegan
• finish middlesex
• buy a succulent for my desk at work

• a new earth - eckhart tolle
• the untethered soul - michael singer
• the alchemist - paul coelho
• vibrate higher daily - lalah delia
• loving what is - byron katie
• present over perfect - shauna niequist

• santorini, greece
• chattahoochee, georgia
• jackson hole, wyoming
• tulum, mexico
• byron bay, australia
• amalfi coast, italy
• marseille, france
• machu picchu, peru
• budapest, hungary

• rare beauty concealer
• tarte shape tape concealer
• glossier skin tint
• covergirl clean matte bb cream
• maybelline dream fresh bb cream
• glossier boy brow
• glossier moon lidstar
• benefit roller lash
• glossier lash slick
• maybelline snapscara
• flesh powder blush
• benefit posietint
• urban decay beached bronzer
• mac strobe cream
• glossier generation g
• vaseline rosy lips with almond oil

• french press and toast with butter and honey/jam
• reading on the front porch
• long walk listening to a podcast
• going to a coffee shop to write, read, journal
• doing chores and tidying up
• watching a cozy movie or tv show
• making a nice dinner and eating on the porch

• vitra's atlas of furniture design
• furniture design: an introduction to development, materials and manufacturing
• guerrilla furniture design
• goods 2: interior products from sketch to use
• furniture marketing: from product development to distribution
• herman miller: a way of living
• børge mogensen: simplicity and function
• history of furniture: a global view
• artek and the aaltos: creating a modern world
• how to build modern furniture

smithsonian natural history holocaust (whole day) monuments nice dinner bar hopping

• newseum
• arlington

food

coffee/cafes

• baked & wired (cupcakes!)

drinks

• churchkey (beer & snacks)
• columbia room (fancy bar/lounge)
• dos mamis (colorful festive cocktail bar)
• copycat co. (hip w/ chinese street food)

nearby

• big bear cafe (cute lunch/coffee)
• the pub & the people (gastropub/tavern)
• the red hen (rustic italian)

• bananas
• spinach
• citrus
• sweet potatoes
• strawberries
• brown rice
• eggs
• oatmeal
• yogurt
• hummus
• avocados

• asheville, n.c.
• austin, t.x.
• portland, o.r.
• nashville, t.n.
• london
• vienna
• berlin

• quinoa sweet potato raisin salad
• cumin, roasted carrot, lentil salad
• wild rice and pea salad
• carrot lentil raisin salad
• rejuvenating bowl

• personal writing every day, even just one word
• make healthier choices with food (1400 cal. a day max!) and only eat out of hunger, not boredom or for pleasure
• figure out a "side hustle" personal project
• read consistently (not like three months between each book or taking a month to read a book)
• work through my list of restaurants/coffee shops/bars to try, try more new places instead of only going to my favorite places
• make new friends
• take more photos of people + use my polaroid more (take it to work)

• adwoa aboah
• karlie kloss
• jena malone
• brit marling
• alison sudol
• haley bennett
• dakota johnson
• jenny slate
• maggie rogers
• lalalivia

cute generator idea :^)

• hot tea
• thrilling novels
• archer
• cuddling up in bed
• youtube makeup videos
• putting on a cute outfit
• cooking a meal for myself
• hot chocolate
• going to the coffee shop
• seeing a friend
• going to the movie theater
• thrift shopping
• collaging

• the recordist - short (2007)
• political disasters (2009)
• sound of my voice (2011)
• another earth (2011)
• arbitrage (2012)
• the company you keep (2012)
• the east (2013)
• the better angels (2014)
• i origins (2014)
• the keeping room (2014)
• posthumous (2014)
• babylon - miniseries (2014)

• amandine renard
• anastasia ivanova
• anna selezneva
• antonina vasylchenko
• aya jones
• avery blanchard
• barbara palvin
• birgit kos
• blanca padilla
• blesnya minher
• bregje heinen
• cong he
• damaris goddrie
• daniela braga
• emm arruda
• emma laird
• esther heech
• frida gustavsson
• georgie hobday
• heloise giraud
• imaan hammam

weekday

• instant oatmeal with fruit
• muffins from mix
• peanut butter and banana toast
• cereal or granola with milk
• breakfast bowl with egg, black bean, salsa, corn
• corn tortillas with egg and cheese
• wheat toast with peanut butter
• to pre-make
  • freezer breakfast sandwiches
  • cheese, egg, and veggie cups
  • banana pb oatmeal bars
  • frozen dipped banana + and other recipes
  • stuffed breakfast peppers
  • apple pie almond butter balls
  • spiced pear muffins
  • homemade toaster strudel
  • goat cheese + greens cups
  • gingerbread granola

• seasons & suppers
• adventures in cooking
• brown-eyed baker
• minimalist baker
• call me cupcake

aug 26

• speaking coherently at the media board meeting
• taking senior seminar
• organizing premier fair table and schedule
• taking time to do class readings for several hours every day
• sitting down to write and getting it done
• emailing my professors
• speaking up in class

nov 17

• completing the first draft of my senior seminar paper
• staying on schedule with all my deadlines
• learning a lot about poetry in independent study
• doing really well on all my tests so far

• bird bath
• hummingbird feeder
• copious indoor plants: ferns, peace lilies, aloe, golden pothos, daisies, mums
• chive and mint plants for windowsills
• enormous puffy white comforter
• coffee and jasmine scented candles
• teapot
• handmade soaps from whole foods
• gold-rimmed mirrors

• uk
  • american pie shower jelly
  • think pink bath bomb
  • flowering tea bubble bar
  • dear john bubble bar
  • flying saucers bubble bar
  • ooh la la soap
  • iced wine shower jelly
  • turkish delight roulade shower smoothie
  • blueberry roulade shower jelly
  • emperor of ice cream buttercream
  • business time massage bar
• usa
  • sex bomb bath bomb
  • twilight bath bomb
  • honey bee bath bomb
  • the experimenter bath bomb
  • milky bath bubble bar
  • rose jam bubbleroon

• muji
• h&m home
• arro
• scandinavian designs
• lulu & georgia
• allmodern

• national mall
• sculpture garden
• white house
• capitol building
• lincoln memorial
• washington monument
• vietnam veterans memorial
• korean war veterans memorial
• ford theater
• united states botanic garden
• museums
  • national gallery of art
  • smithsonian american art museum
  • museum of natural history
  • national zoological park
  • holocaust memorial museum
  • international spy museum
  • newseum
  • museum of the american indian
  • national portrait gallery

• hot knife - fiona apple
• ifhy - tyler the creator
• old money - lana del rey
• i wanna be yours - arctic monkeys
• paris is burning - st. vincent
• two cousins - slow club
• night time my time - sky ferreira
• most wanted - cults
• lights out - santigold
• death to los campesinos - los campesinos
• other people - beach house
• born to die - lana del rey
• piledriver waltz - alex turner
• circus - britney spears
• nuclear seasons - charli xcx
• lust for life - girls
• heart-shaped box - nirvana
• west coast - coconut records

• perfectionist / meticulous
• independent
• reliable
• observant
• dwelling on the past
• over-thinking
• logical / analytical
• good at researching
• sometimes too critical
• indecisive
• spends time organizing mind
• calm on the outside, buzzing on the inside

• old slab of concrete in a clearing where a basketball court used to be
• holly bushes in the backyard of my neighbor's house
• overgrown plot of land with rope swing (no longer there)
• the side street still in development where couples park their car at night to make out
• the creek that runs behind everyone's houses
• mossy patch between my house and the woods perfect for making little stone gardens
• remains of an old fence where honeysuckle grows every spring

• farmacy skincare
• milk makeup
• sugarpill
• melt cosmetics
• violet voss
• morphe, sigma, and zoeva brushes
• gerard cosmetics
• herbivore skincare
• lola's apothecary
• naked princess beauty
• make cosmetics
• nib + fab
• hynt beauty
• eve lom
• follain skincare
• natasha denona
• makeup revolution
• sleek makeup
• winkylux
• kiko milano

santa list:

• apis apotheca honey mallow whip ($56)
• sephora ($73)

family list:

• made by mary live in hoops
• creative case study 2025 wall calendar
• ranger station old fashioned candle
• LMNT grapefruit salt pack

• hairdresser
• write a novel & get representation/sell it
• squarespace website designer (ilovecreatives course)
• data analyst (Upstate bootcamp course)
• painter
• make a simple app and sell it on the app store

• collage - especially found poems and adding lyrics to my bujo & journal from cut out magazine letters
• pressed flowers
• framing mementos on pretty fabric
• make a zine?
• reading - more spiritual/philosophical/nature/ecology books mixed in with the fiction
• no buy: shopping my own closet, taking care of what i already own, minimalism, manifesting thrift finds
• look at anthropologie wall art for inspo to try and dupe

• oldies in my headphones - dreamy 50s ballads or 1960s/70s rock
• movies
• making myself a meal at lunch
• cup of jo articles
• staring out the window, sunlight through the clouds, watching birds
• sips of water and fun drinks
• a little marveling at color and life
• thinking about the book i'm reading or want to read next
• imagining plots for novels i'll write one day

• learn to live without temporary dopamine hits
• stop being afraid to look dumb or be bad at something
• put my trust in other people
• believe i'm stronger than i think
• get comfortable in the quiet and slowness
• stop living so much in daydreams and plans and future lists
• start now, not later/when i feel like it

• personal responsibility toward climate change and global conflict - whether anything can be done at that level
• internet/digital addiction
• the idea of entering into motherhood and the changes it would bring, internally and externally
• actually making time to write without being a perfectionist about it
• getting the laundry done
• compromise
• crying when i'm angry during disagreements
• taking on the feelings of others and feeling responsible for their happiness/inability to let bad feelings simply be
• health anxiety... googling symptoms
• thinking that next material purchase will fix my entire life
• body image
• following recipes

• athens, greece
• copenhagen, denmark
• geneva, switzerland
• amalfi coast, italy
• marseilles, france
• budapest, hungary
• amsterdam, the netherlands
• dublin, ireland
• auckland, new zealand

• read at methodical
• coffee underground
• walk to the park
• walk to cancer survivor's park
• bex w/ book
• m. judson w/ journal
• sully's
• village grind
• kuka juice
• maple street biscuit
• starbucks hyatt
• tropical grille
• perfect buns
• chickfila window

• unlocked
• coffee underground
• due south
• landmark methodical (afternoons)
• chestnut (afternoons)
• grateful brew
• augusta twenty
• other lands
• spill the beans (weekdays)

• fleet foxes poster above sofa [need to order frame]
• floating magazine shelf by mirror [already ordered]
• darker rug to layer over current one? OR some kind of cover for sofa that doesn't look cheap?
• simplify desk, darker tones
• trade out bookshelf with one at home
• cigar box for markers
• swap cactus lamp with dresser lamp from home

• music and lyrics (2007)
• college (2008)
• the haunting of molly hartley (2008)
• kaboom (2010)
• arcadia lost (2010)
• deep powder (2013)
• kristy (2014)
• lost in the white city (2014)
• a kind of murder (2016)
• the magnificent seven (2016)
• the girl on the train (2016)
• rules don't apply (2016)
• thank you for your service (2017)
• swallow (2019)
• the red sea diving resort (2019)
• cyrano (2021)
• she is love (2023)

• ellis brooklyn vanilla milk
• ranger station
• ffern
• snif
• regime des fleurs
• phlur missing person
• henry rose
• imaginary authors
• malin and goetz strawberry edp
• aerin amber musk

• sticky dates
• lakes
• cup o' coffee
• sleepy
• blue skies and fluffy white clouds
• matcha roll
• dream cream self-preserving

• fresh strawberries
• sweet cream cheese
• cinnamon
• roasted butternut squash
• sharp cheddar cheese
• peaches & cream
• peanut butter mousse
• massaman curry
• cashews
• pineapple on pizza
• peppermint coffee creamer
• asian slaw
• broccoli cheese soup
• chai
• banana & peanut butter
• goat cheese & roasted tomato

• weight/resistance (proprioceptive input)
  • lifting weights or bodyweight exercises
  • weighted blankets and pads
  • cuddle
• shake it out
• take a warm bath or use a heating pad/blanket
• try a tracking exercise
  • sit comfortably and take a few breaths to relax.
  • when ready, begin to slowly look around the room and allow your gaze to land on various objects.
  • when it does so, name the object out loud.
  • if you find an object that particularly appeals to you, linger on it for a while.
  • repeat until you feel calm and ready to stop.

• 30 - adele
• star-crossed - kacey musgraves
• new skin - verite
• black coffee - delacey
• red (taylor's version) - taylor swift
• shore - fleet foxes
• solar power - lorde
• cape god - allie x
• superstar - caroline rose

• roasted carrot soup
• hungarian mushroom soup
• french onion soup
• broccoli cheddar soup
• sausage, bacon, potato, and kale soup
• easy dumpling soup
• corn and leek bisque

• beach house
• mgmt
• maggie rogers
• tennis
• florence + the machine
• lennon stella
• lorde
• taylor swift
• aly & aj
• kacey musgraves
• olivia rodrigo
• madison beer
• gracie abrams

• having my own desk
• my morning coffee in my special mug
• going to meetings and sitting among people and feeling part of a team
• saying hi to people in the morning
• singing in the car to & from work
• my bullet journal next to me at my desk and crossing things off
• taking lunch and going somewhere fun to have a break
• making new friends and having bonds with my new coworkers
• coming home and feeling turned off from work
• a morning routine
• a cool hip feeling office that makes everything feel more cool
• office parties
• zoning in on a task with my headphones on
• desk plants

• curious
• open
• hopeful
• aimless
• tender
• warm
• unsettled
• finding center

• blue is the warmest color
• almost famous
• black swan
• the girl with the dragon tattoo
• serendipity
• weepah way for now
• you've got mail
• pride & prejudice
• the virgin suicides
• little women
• arrival
• ferris bueller’s day off
• frances ha
• a cinderella story
• swallow
• scott pilgrim vs. the world

• dedcool - taunt
• maison margiela - jazz club
• le labo - another 13
• giorgio armani - si fiori
• jo malone - mimosa & cardamom
• chloe - nomade absolu
• ariana grande - thank u, next
• miller harris - lost in the city

• make peanut butter banana oat bars
• start a short story!!
• drop off father's day gift
• go journal and lunch at paris mountain
• saturday morning coffee
• ship tennis skirt depop order
• explore job openings
• tarot reading

• dublin
• london
• madrid/zach's old home
• marseille
• switzerland
• milan, venice, bologna, florence, rome, naples, palermo
• athens
• montenegro
• budapest
• vienna
• munich, frankfurt, (berlin?)
• brussels
• amsterdam

• moon juice
• cap beauty
• golde
• rainbo
• seed
• the nue co.

• an education
• pirate radio
• god help the girl
• a single man
• inside llewyn davis
• ginger & rosa
• factory girl

• writing in my journal
• baking/cooking a recipe
• cleaning my apartment
• doing the dishes
• doing laundry
• crossing items off my to-do list at work
• becoming immersed in a book
• going to the movie theater
• doing something meaningful with a close person

what is it?

• specific, measurable, achievable, realistic, time-limited
• should be positive - whatever you focus on should increase rather than decrease (e.g. "get 2 hours more sleep each night" instead of "stop staying up late")

some of mine:

• make a tangible creative effort every day
• think more often of things i'm grateful for
• practice healthy communication when upset
• think realistically rather than negatively/paranoid/irrational

• three types of thoughts that are good to try and reframe: limiting thoughts ("i'm not good enough"), wishing something were better/feeling like you're missing out, specific problem areas (wanting to lose weight etc)
• "events or situations do not have inherent meaning; rather, you assign them a meaning based on how you interpret the event."
• examine the assumptions that frame your perception of a situation (e.g. "i'll never get a promotion because i don't suck up at work" assumes only suck-ups get promoted)
  • "irrational core beliefs that lead to self-defeating thoughts, emotions and actions."
• once you notice your negative thought, reframe it with one of these techniques:

• the ash by isabel galleymore
• god says yes to me by kaylin haught
• my species by jane hirshfield
• good bones by maggie smith
• i see boats moving by fernando pessoa
• hit it by karyna mcglynn
• when i rise up by georgia douglas johnson
• maggie and milly and molly and may by e. e. cummings
• i know my soul by claude mckay
• her kind by anne sexton
• coco(nut) by mohogany l. brown
• tatt that by d. a. powell
• the poet of ignorance by anne sexton

• conan gray videos (as well as other artistic youtubers showing journaling pages, painting processes, art portfolios, pencil case contents)
• tennis (the band)
• lorde and her album melodrama and vevo electric lady recording sessions
• doing yoga with adriene videos on my back deck
• watercolor painting
• collaging
• house of cards
• big glasses of ice water
• almond milk

• meditating on the beach
• farmer's market peaches
• cracki records label on bandcamp
• palo alto score by devonte hynes
• denim short shorts
• musky sentimental abercrombie & fitch fragrance samples
• prairie blouses (high neck, ruffles)
• the woman warrior by maxine hong kingston
• poetry foundation random poems
• putting milk in coffee instead of creamer and using biscotti

southern om

• hot yoga only, always a lot of people there, more upbeat music playing during sessions, encouraging and helpful teachers

bk yoga

• very small groups, sometimes even just 2 or 3, smaller studio, good for hot yoga, slower pace and more about relaxation than working out, very experienced teachers

greenville yoga

• big windows and lots of light, good for regular yoga, very focused on peace and self-love, medium-sized classes with a good mix of people, calming and soothing teachers

quest brewery hatha & hops

• good group of people, calm vibe with no pressure, teacher a little weird and touch...

• the runaways (2010)
• the good doctor (2011)
• jack & diane (2012)
• magic mike (2012)
• kiss of the damned (2012)
• yellow (2012)
• dixieland (2015)
• mad max: fury road (2015)
• the girlfriend experience [tv series] (2015)
• american honey (2016)
• lovesong (2016)
• the discovery (2017)
• we don't belong here (2017)
• it comes at night (2017)
• happy valley [tv movie] (2017)
• under the silver lake (2017)
• logan lucky (2017)
• welcome the stranger (2017)
• the house that jack built (2018)
• hold the dark (2018)

• tom ford eye color quad
• charlotte tilbury swish & pop blush
• le volume de chanel mascara
• chanel rouge coco stylo - script
• dior lip glow pomade
• dior blush and contour sculpting stick
• dior fusion mono mirror
• nars dual intensity cheek palette
• nars dual intensity eyeshadow - europa
• keyvn aucoin guardian angel cream highli...
• kevyn aucoin sensual skin enhancer
• lancome teint idole cushion foundation
• lancome blush subtil cushion - sorbet ro...
• clinique bb cushion

• rosamund pike as hedda gabler
• benedict cumberbatch as george tesman
• oscar isaac as hamlet
• tavi gevinson as mary warren
• james mcavoy as macbeth
• tom hiddleston as coriolanus
• benedict cumberbatch as hamlet
• jessica chastain as salome

• hot cocoa with fat marshmallows
• evening fires and tv shows
• baths with bubbles and shimmer and lovely scents
• carving a pumpkin for the porch
• roasted root vegetables with olive oil
• slippers and thick sweaters
• music with acoustic guitars and glowy voices
• long drives on the highway with the trees turning orange
• homework in the library in the gold afternoon
• pulling the comforter up to your nose
• tea and pancakes on saturday morning
• knee high boots
• a slice of pie after dinner

• dark, bold lips + glitter and gloss
• lush lashes (with primer) and delicate shadow
• illuminated skin - natural all-over glow, no strip of glittery highlight
• androdygnous hair - finger curls, deep parts, minimal ponytails, no flowing center-parted waves
• graphic black liner
• decadent, elaborate hair accessories
• the perfect nude mlbb

• prep (2005)-
• the man of my dreams (2006)-
• american wife (2008)
• sisterland (2013)-
• eligible (2016)

• nymphomaniac vol. 1 & 2 (2013)
• tale of tales (2015)
• the lady in the car with glasses and a gun (2015)
• taj mahal (2015)
• the childhood of a leader (2015)
• high-rise (2015)
• winter (2015)
• the last photograph (2017)
• rosy (2017)
• borough park (2017)
• redoubtable (2017)
• 3 way junction (2017)
• vox lux (2018)
• the bell jar (2018)

(not including museums in dc)

• metropolitan museum of art (new york, ny): american, egyptian, ancient greek and roman, medieval, arms and armor, oceana and the americas, modern and contemporary, islamic
• guggenheim (new york, ny): modern and contemporary
• museum of modern art (new york, ny): modern and contemporary
• los angeles county museum of art (los angeles, ca): ancient to contemporary
• the getty museum (los angeles, ca): large museum complex, art periods divided between buildings, architecture
• art institute of chicago (chicago, il): ancient to contemporary
• museum of fine arts (boston, ma): impressionists, decorative arts, classic american art
• museum of fine arts (houston, tx): world culture, 18th century, renaissance
• philadelphia museum of art (philadelphia, pa): all major periods and styles, modern emphasis
• san francisco museum of modern art (san francisco, ca): 20th century art including photography

aiming to delete as many as possible

• facebook
• twitter
• tumblr
• instagram
• snapchat
• yikyak
• pinterest
• reddit
• tiktok

• american vogue
• interview
• W
• i-D
• paper
• british vogue
• dazed
• l'officiel
• numero
• oyster
• another
• jalouse
• elle
• wonderland
• supplement

• confessions of a teenage drama queen
• national treasure
• splash
• black swan
• nymphomaniac
• somewhere
• the sisterhood of the traveling pants
• the girl with the dragon tattoo
• martha marcy may marlene
• jane eyre
• penelope
• the sisterhood of night
• ex machina

• faery lore, magic, and enchantments
• fairy potions and spells
• fairy spells
• fairy enchantments and spells
• planning a faery ritual
• faery beauty

• at a sushi restaurant
• in a parked car at night with the seat reclined and listening to my favorite songs
• walking into class and elegantly shedding my coat
• sitting on a folding chair at the beach with the sun setting and glinting off the waves and wet sand
• in a coffee shop on a rainy day writing a short story that i feel good about
• snuggled in my warm bed hours before i have to wake up scrolling through my phone in pale morning light
• shopping in glossy fancy shops in paris or london
• alone in an apartment of my own feeling a little lonely and a little powerful
• taking off my makeup at the end of the day splashing warm water on my face knowing it is quiet and dark outside

• homemade black bean hummus and warm pita
• granola and milk
• cashews/almonds and cheddar/mozzarella cheese
• apple and cheddar quesadilla
• cream cheese, ham, tortilla rounds
• diced avocado and salsa
• baked cheddar and bean dip tortilla roll-ups
• canned chickpeas baked with olive oil, paprika, and cumin
• peanut butter, strawberry, and honey on cracker
• fold-overs
  • jam and cream cheese: roll out refrigerated pizza dough to 1/4 inch thick; cut into 3-inch rounds. top with a dollop each of cream cheese and jam. brush the edges with beaten egg, fold in half and press to seal. brush with egg and sprinkle with s...

• switzerland
• grand teton national park / jackson hole
• banff
• new york city
• boston
• a cute small town in maine
• niagara falls
• quebec
• montreal
• red rocks amphitheatere
• seattle
• redwood national park
• alaska
• stockholm
• iceland
• copenhagen
• edinburgh
• budapest
• strasbourg (FR)
• trieste (IT)
• croatia

• mop the floor
• overhead light > ceiling fan?
• different bookshelf/storage shelf (white wire?)
• new "coffee table" something without glass
• nicer little table
• get rid of the old fire box
• repurpose cute small wood table - plant?

• fatal attraction
• blue velvet
• basic instinct
• jagged edge
• damage
• cruel intentions
• eyes wide shut
• body heat

• book dinner reservation
• asheville hotel reservation
• westin reservation
• hair accessories
• shoes
• setting spray & new black eyeliner
• hair styling appointment in asheville
• earrings

• walk at the nature park
• go to the farmer's market
• shop local boutiques
• write, paint, make
• work in the yard and make the backyard nice
• tidy and declutter
• bake something healthy
• go to hot yoga

• get rid of gray sofa (somehow) - replace with chair from living room and bookshelf from tina - buy new recliner for living room
• new tapestry/art to replace orange & white one
• clean off/redecorate floating shelves
• massive cleanout of sweaters - use more of that shelving for art supplies
• ways to make bedroom cozier?? art, decor, lighting, mood... gauzy curtains?
• tooootally refresh the backyard! clean up under windows, plant bushes, get pavers, trash/use up stick pile in bonfires, fire pit, make deck nicer
• donate extra pillows from guest bed
• paint wood of bathroom shelving white
• new bookshelf: move perfumes to display on top (cute cards/letters in hanging shelf?), keep sheets or towels in baskets on the bookshelf?

• had dim sum with my best friend
• cooked two delicious pasta dishes at home
• super productive work meeting
• drank a lot of LMNT (but somehow don't feel like i hydrated enough...)
• journaled before work at a coffee shop 2x
• ate good baguette with jam and butter
• read outside in the sun during my lunch break
• ordered perfume samples on luckyscent

• bad times at the el royale
• the nice guys
• once upon a time... in hollywood
• 20th century women
• almost famous
• american hustle
• inherent vice
• the runaways
• dazed and confused
• lovelace

• become a regular at a local coffee shop
• take a blanket to the park on a summer day
• give someone a compliment
• find a positive online forum/community to participate in
• pick up a communal hobby (knitting, board games, dnd, art class)
• learn to play pickleball

• you hurt my feelings
• past lives
• asteroid city
• barbie
• indiana jones and the dial of destiny
• earth mama
• oppenheimer
• talk to me

• no expectations
• always wear socks
• amy's canned soups
• humidifier
• binge comfort shows
• upbeat positive music
• cute little novels
• youtube
• lots of hot chocolate
• make lots of plans - things to look fwd to
• nintendo switch

• audrey sweater (cream)
• pearl top
• zora bodysuit
• lara bodysuit
• montague top

• liz claiborne - liz sunrise
• hilary duff - with love
• ralph lauren - blue
• ralph lauren - ralph rocks
• aerie - whoa!!

ON THE SCENE Give a recent scene report, either from a momentous occasion or regular haunt.

• scene: on the side of an appalachian mountain, sitting in soft long dry grass next to my partner, tall grass all around us and the trail slicing through, a pause next to a trickling pond along the creek, eating mixed nuts and drinking cold creek water from the filter straw

CIRCLE OF CONFIDANTS Who is currently comprising your inner circle?

• IRL friends, partner, a few URL people

CAMERA ROLL Look through recent photos. Identify one that feels best representative of the last month.

• reading on the porch with hot tea and new soft jeans on

GRIPPING What deeply captured your full a...

• malcolm & marie
• the world to come
• holler
• summer of 85
• zola
• blue bayou
• last night in soho
• spencer
• tenet
• never rarely sometimes always
• on the rocks

Detox Mode: What in your current world is feeling stale, done, and/or ready to reset?

• social media discourse, cheap clothes for temporary fulfillment, "wellness rituals" and "self improvement," scrolling indeed

Microdose: What are you dabbling in (or perhaps where would you LIKE to dabble?)

• adult coloring books, herbalism and learning about the nervous/adrenal system, little paintings made for no one but myself

Soup Season: Cite a newly discovered source of comfort — be it physical or emotional.

• lazy mornings lying in the bed for a few hours, tumblr and nostalgia for the old internet

On Belay: Identify where you are needing ...

• begin again
• before we go
• lady bird
• lost in translation
• the perks of being a wallflower
• the spectacular now
• moonrise kingdom
• two-bit waltz
• me and earl and the dying girl
• the way way back
• the art of getting by
• it's kind of a funny story
• mistress america

• crimson peak
• a dangerous method
• jane eyre
• ex machina
• shame
• call me by your name
• nymphomaniac
• the man from u.n.c.l.e.
• american beauty
• stoker

• not waving but drowning (2012)
• the kings of summer (2013)
• gibsonburg (2013)
• miss stevens (2016)
• galveston (2018)
• hustlers (2019)
• chemical hearts (2020)
• plus/minus (in production)

• curtis sittenfeld
• jeffrey eugenides
• stephanie danler
• celeste ng
• emma cline
• e. lockhart

• analog
• slow
• simple
• present
• manifest
• nourish
• intentional
• advocate
• communicate
• immerse
• devour
• savor
• still

• learn to code/design
• tune in (meditate)
• write
• clean/organize
• cook
• explore nature
• read fiction
• read informational writing
• go on daily walk
• make a podcast
• go to a cafe
• do a crossword
• work on a puzzle
• hike or go to a mountain
• sit and stare at the sky
• journal
• drive and listen to music

• black tea with no sugar, pump of raspberry and splenda
• iced blonde americano
• black tea with lemonade + mango dragonfruit refresher
• green tea latte + almond milk, a scoop of matcha, and 3 pumps of sugar free vanilla syrup
• grande cold brew + white mocha, sugar free vanilla syrup, half & half
• vanilla cold foam cold brew
• vanilla sweet cream cold brew
• iced matcha with lemonade
• iced coffee with coconut milk and cinnamon dolce
• pink drink with light ice

• wilmington/outer banks, NC
• washington, DC
• philadelphia, PN
• new york, NY
• providence, RI
• boston, MA
• vermont, maine, montreal, toronto
• nashville, TN
• austin, TX
• el paso, TX
• albuquerque, NM
• phoenix, AZ
• utah national forests
• LA, san jose
• eugene, portland
• seattle, WA
• vancouver

• i didn't know - skinshape
• barrie - dark tropical
• beach house - ppp
• beach house - other people
• alaska - maggie rogers
• natural state - cults
• for what it's worth - buffalo springfield
• siberian breaks - mgmt
• hot coals - edward sharpe & the magnetic zeroes
• better - maggie rogers
• truth - alex ebert
• when the party's over - billie eilish
• ribs - lorde
• new years day - taylor swift
• venice bitch - lana del rey
• slow burn - kacey musgraves
• meet me in the hallway - harry styles
• modern woman - tennis
• SOS - ABBA

• keep my space clean & inviting
• do chores regularly
• make writing a habit
• don't spend too much time on the phone
• live slowly instead of chasing instant gratification
• use up the groceries i buy
• try to live sustainably - reusable items vs. single-use plastic
• initiate time with friends
• protect my heart
• not overextend myself

• celebrate my birthday in a way that makes me feel good and loved
• take a trip to a new city
• master one really good dinner recipe that i can cook on my own
• host a party at my apartment
• cook more meals in a week than i eat out
• put money in savings from every paycheck
• send out at least 2 short stories
• complete at least 5 short stories

• a guy walking down the hall in front of me holding the elevator because he knew i was there
• a girl outside the cafe taking pictures of the birds and trying to get them mid-flight, and then taking pictures of her canned drink, twisting the can a little to get the right angle
• the overpriced handmade mixed berry gourmet poptart i finally treated myself to buying today, and my routine favorite diet lemonade
• a girl with grass green hair
• the fab 5 from queer eye and how kind, vulnerable, and loving they are

for a boy:

• brandon
• james
• ben
• andrew
• theodore/theo/teddy

for a girl:

• elizabeth
• keira
• india
• joy

• was it intentional? - look at it from the other person's perspective, is it clear that they meant to hurt you, or could it be an accident?
• what am i feeling? - am i purely reacting to their behavior, or did it tap something internal, like doubts of self-worth, or fear, or embarrassment/shame?
• what's really going on? - once you identify your true emotion, examine why you are feeling it, did their behavior merely trigger something you've already been dwelling on?
• where's the relief? - what do you need to help this feeling? alone time, distraction through a movie or activity, time with friends who will cheer you up? don't be afraid to ask a friend for help or let them know you're having a hard time
• how can i prevent it from happening again? - trust your relationships enough to be...

• get to and maintain 125 lbs
• write intros ahead consistently
• watch movies i haven't seen (from my list) instead of just old favorites
• try new restaurants and bars (make a list)
• move out into my own place

• ginger candies
• lavender essential oil
• eat vitamin c-rich foods before (citrus fruits, broccoli, red peppers) of foods with probiotics (yogurt, blueberries)
• get electrolytes by bringing water and healthy snacks like banana, coconut water, greens
• sleeping mask
• go to the gym or yoga before an afternoon flight

usa site

• sleepy - hand and body lotion
• scrubee - exfoliating body butter

uk site

• rose jam - body spray
• green coconut - jelly bomb

• strawberry + lime + cucumber
• strawberry + orange + mint
• orange + blueberry
• honeydew + raspberry
• lemon + strawberry + rosemary
• watermelon + basil
• pineapple + mint
• cherry + lime

• bed, bath, and beyond - short (1996)
• lick the star (1998)
• the virgin suicides (1999)
• un matin partout dans le monde - tv short (2000)
• lost in translation (2003)
• VOID - segment (2005)
• marie antoinette (2006)
• somewhere (2010)
• the bling ring (2013)
• a very murray christmas (2015)
• the beguiled (2017)

• elle fanning
• christie tyler (nycbambi)
• lana del rey
• jenny slate
• haley bennett
• phoebe tonkin
• dasha kim (dayeshka)
• jane birkin

• diorskin nude air
• ✔ tarte rainforest of the sea
• marc jacobs remarcable foundation concentrate
• make up for ever water blend
• smashbox studio skin
• bobbi brown skin foundation
• diorskin forever
• lancome teint idole 24h
• kevyn aucoin sensual skin enhancer
• nars all day luminous weightless foundation
• it cosmetics cc+ veil beauty fluid foundation
• bareminerals complextion rescue tinted hydrating gel cream
• bobbi brown bb cream
• laura mercier tinted moisturizer
• koh gen do aqua foundation
• clinique beyond perfecting

• mini packets of pistachios/cashews/almonds
• mini boxes of raisins
• breakfast bars (fiber one peanut butter, nature valley fruit and nut/sweet and salty)
• apples, bananas, grapes, strawberries
• pudding, jello, applesauce, yogurt
• sabra honey mustard spread
• lemon
• simply protein bars
• black beans
• canned corn
• corn tortillas

• the perfect creamy mac and cheese
• roasted sweet potatoes and brussels sprouts
• pesto and corn stovetop mac and cheese
• slow cooker french onion soup
• thai red curry
• creamy spinach stuffed mushrooms
• brie and ritz cracker mac and cheese
• greek mac and cheese
• skillet gnocchi with chard and white beans
• no-bake mac and cheese with broccoli
• broccoli, cannellini bean, and cheddar soup
• bacon butternut pasta
• butternut, cauliflower, and coconut curry
• bucatini with mushrooms
• lemon-braised chicken tenders with cauliflower
• cheesy bean and rice bites with sage-pumpkin sauce
• olive garden chicken gnocchi soup
• cauliflower gratin
• panera-like broccoli cheese soup

• adventure time
• powerpuff girls (2016)
• steven universe
• we bare bears
• samurai jack

• everyday face moisturizer
• creamy face scrub
• original coffee scrub
• scrub and body balm set
• glow mask
• body cream

• pure (2009)
• the crown jewels (2011)
• a royal affair (2012)
• anna karenina (2012)
• the fifth estate (2013)
• hotel (2013)
• testament of youth (2014)
• son of a gun (2014)
• seventh son (2014)
• ex machina (2015)
• the man from u.n.c.l.e. (2015)
• the danish girl (2015)
• burnt (2015)
• jason bourne (2016)
• the light between oceans (2016)
• submergence (2017)
• euphoria (2017)
• tulip fever (2017)
• tomb raider (2018)

• fresh tinted lip balm
• burberry
  • cashmere soft matte foundation
  • eye colour cream
• chanel
  • rouge coco shine
  • long wear luminous matte eyeshadow
  • le volume de chanel mascara
  • perfection lumiere velvet foundation
• charlotte tilbury
  • film star bronze & glow
  • eyes to mesmerize cream shadow
  • the dolce vita palette
  • the spy who loved me palette
  • cheek to chic blush
  • light wonder foundation
  • bar of gold highlighter
• yves saint laurent

• ✔ perfecting skin tint
• ✔ moon mask
• greens mask
• coconut balm dot com
• ✔ generation g
• rosewater spray
• quartz haloscope
• ✔ moonstone haloscope

• jane eyre + mr. rochester
• elizabeth bennett + mr. darcy
• joe + jerome
• lana kane + sterling archer
• penelope + johnny
• veronica mars + logan echolls
• james bond + vesper lynd
• freddie mcclair + effy stonem
• cher horowitz + josh lucas
• thumbelina + cornelius
• beauty + the beast
• nick miller + jess day
• gaby teller + ilya kuryakin
• joe fox + kathleen kelly
• rebecca bloomwood + luke brandon

• elizabeth and james nirvana black (sweet, musky, rich, caramel-y, reminds me of the holidays)
• chanel chance eau fraiche and eau tendre (bright and girly and clean)
• givenchy ysatis (old-fashioned, powdery, and nostalgic)
• miu miu miu miu (floral with a hint of spice, the perfect sweet scent with a little duskiness and sensuality)
• guerlain la petite robe noire
• yves saint laurent black opium (rich and sweet and heavy)
• chloe chloe eau de parfum (creamy fresh flowers)
• olivine she belongs there (honeysuckle)
• olivine olivine
• elizabeth and james nirvana rose (sweet carnal musk)
• tom ford velvet orchid (rich velvety smoky mature flowers)

• cheek/lip biting
• coming home and getting right in bed
• scrolling mindlessly on my phone
• letting my mind drift in class
• looking at my phone while driving
• starting art projects and never finishing them
• online shopping
• negative thinking/self-talk
• being judgmental towards others

this is a cute topic! i used the random generator.

• dreamly: a very beautiful and simple dream journaling app with a space to title, describe, and doodle your dreams. the design is so lovely.
• imoodjournal: the simplest and most helpful mood tracker i have found. you rate your mood on a scale of i think "awful" to "great" and then you can write a little note and attach a picture if you want. it adds your rating to a bar graph that makes it super easy to see your mood changes over time. and it makes graphs with the line of best fit to show your mood trends-- on which days you tend to have high or low moods, etc. and average ratings for the day/week/month.
• vsco: the ultimate photo editing app. makes your photos look like an urban outfitters photoshoot. a little annoying and hip...

• garlic cheese bites
• chocolate salted caramel tart
• banana pudding dip
• strawberry cream cheese pastries
• schichttorte
• cashew white chocolate biscotti
• chocolate chip irish cream pound cake
• vanilla bean shortbread
• peanut butter crunch cookies
• iced fingers
• cream scones
• peanut butter and jelly bread pudding
• 8-minute mini cinnamon rolls
• cinnamon pear cake