the reason why i "suddenly" disappeared around mid-december last year? yea this list is where i explain that

• in my senior year i moved to a new high school in an entirely new state: approx. 900 miles from where i was before. this was because the school i used to be in was mega, mega toxic; i was picked on multiple times for being mixed, being a girl (at that time), etc. etc. to the point where it just suddenly seemed..okay to harass me daily? so in an effort to take care of myself yea, i moved to memphis with my dad and finished out school from there.
• it was anything far from easy. i don't like sharing personal stories in public so i'll just say what's become of me since then. i ended up hating myself a LOT more than i did when i moved in, which is probably already apparent but eh, whatever. i'm having to take large doses of antidepressants on a daily basis to compensate both the regret of leaving behind people that cared and the intense bouts of loneliness i get from time to time. i continue to get flashbacks from the stupidest things, and self-harm at this point has worked better than any other form of therapy.
• i don't feel guilty for admitting this; i can get very, very, negative and pessimistic at times. so if you're a person who's trying to cut away from people like that, you might wanna either softblock or unfollow this account; neither will offend me.