- i am desperately in love & it is pathetic. i keep telling myself (and i know it's true) that the way i feel is not the way he feels; that if he cares he cares less and that's not ok. but i haven't given up yet.
- i am desperately stressed out about trying to find 4 pots, 2 baskets, a gunny-sack, a cane, and a way to make fake edible meat
- i miss my family so much, and i wonder what my little sisters are up to, and i want to get drunk with my brother and i am in love from afar which is hard
- i miss my high school friends and the way i've lived my life in the past and the sadness that i know will end because this one seems inviolate
- i'm so tired i'm tired of analysis and loving words and hurting because of their beauty. i'm so tired
- i miss sleeping next to ben and feeling someone's arm across my body and can i help it if i substitute the next best thing, can i help it?
- i hate disappointing myself but i am coming to realize that i am not the moral being i thought i was, and i cannot really judge anyone else based on my feelings because i am no better.
nov 5 2015 ∞
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