- there's nothing i can say to change the way it happened
- or that it happened more than once
- that i still haven't said anything to any of these people but i still think about it sometimes
- when i said no but it didn't mean enough to overpower him telling me i wanted it
- when i didn't say no but i didn't say yes and how i thought about whether this counted as an assault because afterward he said sorry
- because he was drunk and irresponsible and i don't blame him because i didn't say no, how did i not say no?
- how many other times were there where i just wanted to stop, wanted someone to notice i wasn't sure i wanted what they wanted, what they were doing
- things move too fast and no one ever asks, "is this okay" often enough
- i am not alone and that is the hardest part: other people hurt so much worse than i do
oct 17 2017 ∞
jan 8 2024 +
