DIFFERENT KIND OF HELL

i don’t have the luxury

of doing what i want

of following a dream

like i could when i was young

it was taken from me

and now what’s done is done

i was pushed into this

something i can’t come back from

i know if i leave

it’ll be a different misery

a different kind of hell

so i better choose well

and i think i’ll take

anything over this any day

life moves fast and i can’t pick up the pace

i’m left behind to fade away

but i want out of this place

just as life passes me by

i need to put this life behind

i know the new one will bleed me dry

it’s what happens every time

it always makes me lose my mind

everyone is always cruel

they’ll never care about you

they’ll spit you out when they want to

isn’t that what they always do?

i think i’m not meant for this world

is everything supposed to hurt?

i get pain’s a part of life

but does it have to be this much?

why does it kill me to be alive?

maybe i’m just cursed

they look at me and say i’m fine

i don’t even know what that feels like

i just wanna feel alright.