HIS HAPPINESS

i can make him feel better

but only when we’re together

when we’re apart it doesn’t work

‘cause words just aren’t enough

he needs to feel my touch

he craves affection ‘cause he’s never had it

and it helps but only temporarily

‘cause i can’t be with him all the time

and it’s the only thing that makes him feel fine

i’ve told him this isn’t right

he denies it every time

“it’s better than it was before,

when i was utterly alone”

i look at him and come undone

i know he wants to leave this world

i’d die for him and he lives for me

but i need him to do more than live

i want him to be free

from all this misery

so his happiness can’t be just me.