a random moment of rambling.

• i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you. i miss you so much. ironically, it's 1:43 am as i'm writing this and i feel so empty without you and it's ruining me that the other half of me won't ever be complete unless you're here. i miss you. i don't know how long it's been since i've been working on this gift, but the more i dedicate my time wrapping this up, the more i miss you. i've been searching through old screenshots of us, of you, of our little moments, and i wish you were here to recreate those moments that i saved up for future keepsakes. i just happened to notice that one of my first screenshots of you go all the way back to december when you tweeted about me being a pain in the ass, yet you can tolerate me because i'm your little baby. even when we were being playful as a joke at the time, i think that must've been when my teeny tiny crush for you began to erupt. the first time you held my pinky, i nearly fell over. those were the days when i was so eager and enthusiastic about impressing you that i became careful and scared around you, rethinking and watching every move i made, which goes all the way back to our old times when we would exchange the longest dms on twitter. don't get me wrong. even to this day, my heart zooms and does a little thing when you offer to kiss me first, or even when you just send me a good morning text for me to wake up to. opening my eyes and realizing that you're mine, it's the best feeling in the world. in the past, i didn't want you think of me as an ugly crackhead, though i'll have to admit, i'm still disgusting as ever and i gross you out like it's my speciality. those moments when we can be entirely comfortable with each other and share those crack bondings together, that's when i sit back and make a little noise from the flood of happiness. how am i so lucky to have you?